A Vicious Circle

I just found out today that I no longer have that wonderful job that I was so excited to get & so desperately needed. Why? Because of security clearance that I needed to have. What could be in my past that is so terrible that might keep me from getting this clearance, you may ask? Am i a terrorist? No! Am I a thief? NO! Am I a threat to any kind of security? NO!!!

The only thing I can guess is that it's my credit, my financial situation (one of the generic reasons on what it could have been). It's a vicious circle, one that I may not be able to get out of. This year has been hell on my finances & my credit rating. I would be able to dig myself out of this hole if I had a job, but I can't get a job (at least this one) because of this fucking hole!

Yes, I plan on spending the rest of the day wallowing in my misery & watching Pirates. Johnny is never a disappointment & never hurts me. It may be better for me to be away from people & soak in my movies anyway.

So, what minimal holiday cheer I may have had has now gone down the toilet.

No music...I just don't feel like it.

Peace & Love