I Am A Music Pain

This Music Monday might be different. If it seems like it's coming from different people, that's because it is. In my head, I know exactly what I'm lookin' for. If I can't put it into words, though, I can't search. Arrrrggghhhh!!!!!

Luckily there are people that kinda get me, that can help me pull the thoughts out of my head. Unfortunately, after dealing w/me for a bit, they gave up on me. Yes, I am picky when it comes to my Music Mondays. They had great songs, but not what I was looking for for this play list, so I took a couple songs from each & continued on my music journey. Some are from other play lists, but they fit perfectly into this one.

So over 5 hrs(& a headache) later, here is my music for the new week. I hope you enjoy it!

Now let's see if I can pull my ass up from this couch. I think I'm stuck!

Peace, Love & Happy Monday

Bikes, Buses, & Walkers, Oh My!

When I was younger, it was cool to walk to ride our bikes. It meant that we were grown up enough to do these things on our own. The joy of walking from point A to Point B without supervision was an awesome thing. Riding our bikes was even more freeing (until I fell).

Then I was old enough to drive & that didn't happen so much anymore. Then driving was the bestest thing ever! We could go even further distances unsupervised (& we did!).

When did it happen that I actually started to pity the people who are seen still walking or biking to Point B. It's not only me, I'm sure (I hope). I look at the people without cars & it's like an L magically appears on their forehead.

What the hell is wrong with me? They're the ones getting exercise every day (while others do it on their treadmills & stationary bikes~don't they know they're getting nowhere?!), saving money on the million dollars per gallon gasoline (while we're loading up our very thirsty guzzlers). They can actually see the new buildings that have gone up around where I grew up as I whizz by in the car (barely missing them cuz they need to get the hell out of the street).

And the bus?! I've never used one for every day travel, so I'm extremely spoiled & snotty on that count! Poor shmoes getting where they need to be for cheap...& being chauffeured. Hmmm...Mike! We need a physical tour of bus-dom, please! (You'll love Mike's stories!)

Has it always been like this? Is it just our generation? Is it just me? (You bastards~not you Holly~yelling at the bicyclists better not just say it's me!)

Please give me your feedback.



Peace & Love

Tattoo Artistes Need Love Too!

(Pronounced arteest, cuz I feel like it!)

Jason of Main Street Tattoos is my new most favoritest tattoo guy (Brandy, I said guy. You haven't worked on me, but you're my favoritest tattoo gal!)

If you're in the IE (Inland Empire, for you non-So Calers) or in the High Desert, & looking to get some ink, please visit Jason. He did my most beautimous butterfly & as you can see from the pic, he did my friend Christy's ankh. Hell, he even did a little tat for Kadi (same day I got my butterfly).

I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but he's my kind of people. Great sense of humor & he plays along. Yeah, not sure if Christy's seen the happy face we decided to put back there yet...

Main Street Tattoo 14519 Main St, Ste B, in Hesperia (760) 948-7100

Peace & Love

The Interview/Sell Yourself!

Hey, baby (imagine me putting my tank top strap down my shoulder)...Sell yourself! Shit, if I don't want me, who else is going to?

Yes, I had my interview yesterday, for anyone interested. The very nice gentleman interviewing me was retired Navy, which means his poker face kicked ass! Do I know how it went? Um, not exactly. I'd say it was a solid OK.

Selling myself has never been one of my best traits. You have to be around me to decide truly if you like me or not (ok or read me & decide you love me because I'm friggin awesome! hehehe).

Reasons to like me (personal &/or work related):

• I'm loyal-I stuck with a job for almost 10 years when I was unhappy for at least 7. I'd rather be hurt than see my friends hurt (even if they're at fault for whatever). If I love you, I'd do anything I could to protect you from being hurt.
• I'm punctual-I despise being late. It's almost enough to give me a mini panic attack!
• I'm hard working-Ok, not always. If I enjoy what I'm doing, I do great. I'll be the best damn worker you've got!
• I'm a people person-Yes, I know I constantly say that I'm not, but for some reason, I seem to get along well with others (I'm not going to day that everyone loves me because...)
• I'm not a liar-I tell the truth almost always. I hate even little fibs. (Yes I have told some, but it was mostly when I was younger.) I can't stand liars. Most of the time, you end up w/5 versions of the same story because they can't remember whatever the hell they've said.
• I have a sense of humor-Ok, not everyone gets me, but I'm funny damn it!

Ok, I'm sure there's more (jeez, I hope so) good stuff about me, but I can't think of it right now. On to the bad!

• I'm stubborn-I'm always right (ok, mainly w/the hubby. I can admit when I'm wrong.)
• I'm shy-Surprise! A lot of people are surprised by this because, for the most part, I can fake confident well.
• I'm lazy-Is anyone really shocked by this?
• I am domestically challenged-Come look at my house. Wait, no!
• I have a shitty memory-Genetics have struck again.
• I'm maternally challenged-I'm not the best mom, but I'm not the worst either (I love my kid, so I guess that's what matters).

I could keep going, but I'm not. The point is to sell myself.

Peace & Love

Fake Friends Need Not Apply

I'm almost 25 *cough cough* years old. I'm getting too old for my feelings to be hurt by someone not wanting to offend.

You didn't offend me. You fucking hurt me & pissed me off. You "love" me? I'd hate to see what you'd do to someone you didn't like!

Ok, at almost 31 (yeah, I knew no one was goin' for the 25), no one but my husband & kid should have that power over me, & now thanks to you, no one else will again. I remember now, why I went for so long without letting anyone close to me. Anyone who gets in my defenses now will be worth it, or they can just stay the fuck out.

Yes, I'm in the anger stage, but will soon be headed to indifference. Then this will mean nothing to me & you'll be a nothing but vague memory.

I have few friends, but they are all precious to me. If someone doesn't like me for who I am, well, they can piss off. I will not beg for their friendship & I will not change who I am. It's taken me this long to get me to where I like who I am, why would I change for someone who didn't appreciate it?



Peace & Love, my friends...
**My new favorite toy (the bird) was provided to me by Shan @ Last Shreds of Sanity. Thank you Shan!

A Music Monday Ride...Like Six Flags, but Different

This Music Monday is gonna be a little different, a little weird, a little loud, a lotta me.

Most people may not like this playlist, but for the most part, this is for me. It shows my emotions & my personality (& my sense of humor). If you do not like dirty songs, or foul language, don't listen to this. Some of these songs just crack me the hell up. Like everyone else, though, I'm not always up. I live on an emotional roller coaster.

Music makes a big difference to my mood & therefore my life. It helps to soothe me, makes me happy, lets me be silly, makes me cry, lets me yell in rage while in traffic (thank you Dope!), & then soothes me again.

Welcome to my roller coaster.

I hope you have a wonderful Monday.

Peace & Love.

I Have an Interview!

Holy shit! I'm so excited & nervous! It has been ages it seems since the last time I have had one (like Feb or something).

Yes, it brings all my insecurities to the surface. The last time I held a steady job, was about a year ago, & by the time I left I had zero self worth. I was in a place where I couldn't do anything right & the harder I tried the worse it got. My relationship with my manager was extremely bad & she I were alone in the office quite a bit. What hurt the most was that she & I were friends at some time during my almost 10 yrs there, ok that & the fact that she almost left us without a place to live .(We had sold our house & were buying a new one. Everything was almost done, but she held up my work verification & then told them I had given notice & then almost didn't change it cuz she didn't like lying. Still a little angry, can you tell? It's taking everything I've got not to say mean things.)

So now a year later I have an interview for a job that I desperately need. Looking at the job description, yes, there are a few things I've never done, but I can learn! A majority of it is right up my alley!

If I get the position, my life would be so much better! I would be able to pay bills. Not worry about buying food. We would be able to have Christmas!!!

I guess this was my drawn out way of saying: If you pray, please pray for me. If you don't, or if you want, on top of praying, please cross everything you possibly can without hurting yourself. My family & I thank you!

Dido - Thank You
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Peace & Love