My Trip to Marshalls

I finally made it to Marshalls yesterday!!! The amazingly wonderful Victoria from Rocket XL had given me gift cards for TJ Maxx & Marshalls (is this starting to sound familiar?), so a-shopping I a-went.

I've been putting it off because I prefer my shopping online. I'm sure the fact that the closest Marshalls is about 30 miles away had nothing to do with it (Sarcasm).

M had an appointment with the doctor yesterday & wouldn't you know, there happens to be a Marshalls about 2 minutes away! What a wonderful coinkidink! Just kidding, I knew. My bff & I planned on meeting up & doing a little shopping before M's appointment, & luckily, she had to be in the area too. We spent a fun-filled hour looking around w/the kiddies in tow.

We found lots of great things (in the yummy section) that we didn't buy. She got a couple good things for cheap!

Here is what I got for $28 & change:Not too shabby, right? And practically unheard of in this day & age!

Peace & Love

Goals for the New Year

Notice I didn't say resolution? I don't believe in New Year's resolutions. I think they're crap, which I know I've said before. People take them seriously for about a minute & then they're forgotten or they're put off for so long until the person feels so guilty that they are forced to give it a shot; this happens in about June or July.

Here are my GOALS for 2010:

• Lose weight-Sounds like everyone's resolutions, but for my health & my family & my sanity (I may f'ing beat that fat chick in the mirror one day!) it needs to be done.
• Get a J O B-I need one to help support us, unless someone wants to pay me for chatting w/y'all...Anyone? Anyone? Shit. It was worth a try.

There are little ones like be nicer, be more active (blah blah blah), but those will most likely come w/attaining my major goals.

I don't want to hear your resolutions. I wanna hear your GOALS. What do you seriously plan on doing in the new year? How do you plan on starting out a new decade. If you say on your couch, pickin your nose, I will throw things at you. Besides, that position has been filled...by moi!

Cuz there's 30 years in a decade, right? Just kidding, but the song seems appropriate anyway.

Peace & Love

My Last Music Monday of 2009

Good morning & happy Monday to everyone! I hope y'all had a wonderful Xmas or three day weekend for you non-Xmasers. I did, but I will go over mine in a separate post...you know, to make it look like I'm doing stuff.

I've got here, my last Music Monday for the year, for the decade! I hope you like it. For those of you without the kiddos around, turn it up! For those of you who have them right next to you or you're unlucky (or lucky) enough to be working:HEADPHONES! As usual, most of it's fine for wherever you are or whomever might be listening, but there's always one or two...

Have a great day!

Peace & Love

Happy Holidays!

Ok, I can't leave everything as such a downer with Xmas so close! With so much going so shitty, so fast, here's what I'm thankful for:

• My family-This includes extended, inlaws, soon to be inlaws, etc. Y'all are a pain in my ass, but I wouldn't trade you in for anything (except for maybe one mealyon dollars. Crap, holidays. Ok, not even for one mealyon dollars.)
• My friends-This includes my IRL & online friends. I'm not sure where my sanity stands, but y'all help me keep at least a tiny bit. You support me when everything goes down the toilet. You make me laugh. You make me feel loved.
• My hubby-Yup, he should've been included w/the fam, but he's more special than that. He makes me crazy. He makes me want to beat him. He's got a foul mouth & a fouler temper. He's also willing to support me in practically anything. We may not always get along & he may call me evil, but I love him to pieces.
• My Kiddo-Yup, she's special too. She makes me crazy. She makes me want to beat her. She's got a foul mouth & a fouler temper...Just kidding, her mouth isn't too bad yet. She is smart & beautiful & wise beyond her years. She sometimes scares me. My little love may be demonic at times, but I am so thankful to have her in my life.
  
• I'm thankful to have a roof over my head-It's friggin cold out! Ok, so it's cold in here too, but it's even colder outside! So many people don't have this luxury, yes luxury, that we take for granted. I will do whatever it takes to keep it. (Tis the season, so I guess I won't bring up hooking again until after the new year.)
• My pottyroom-I can't stand public potties. I may not be phobic, but I hate them!
  

There's more, but you get my point. While I have reasons to be in a bad mood this holiday season, I also have reasons not to.

Happy Holidays, everyone! Since I'm lazy, I have no idea if I'm going to write again this week, so for all of you Xmasers: Merry Christmas! May you have a great one. May you keep your sanity. May you be with the ones you love.

Peace & Love

Too Good To Be True

If something seems too good to be true, it usually is. I thought this would be the perfect job for me, the perfect place, the perfect hours, the perfect chance to learn something new...of course, it wasn't to be for me.

I got all excited, which I try to never do, & ended up heartbroken, embarrassed & ashamed.

Heartbroken that I lost this chance to help my family get back on it's feet. Heartbroken that I lost the chance to get into a good company & learn something new, so I won't always be a secretary. Heartbroken that I've lost hope that I could be something bigger & have the chance to grow.

Embarrassed because now everyone knows how unworthy I am. Yes, I know I posted about it, but wouldn't you all start to wonder why I never talked about this great job I had mentioned getting. I'm not a liar & it's easier to get it out of the way.

Ashamed because I am unworthy somehow. I have never truly done a bad thing in my life, but there is something there that kept me from getting the clearance that I needed. It makes me feel like I will forever be just not good enough. Everyone will hear & either pity me or gloat.

For reasons like this, I am scared shitless of everything good in my life because it is so easily taken away.

I'm sorry I'm such a downer today. I'm going to blame it on PMS, just like I do every time I'm in a bad mood. All I need is some Midol & a couple of drinks & I should be right as rain.

Now I'm gonna go cry over something stupid like having to return my new, beloved Vado HD.

Peace & Love (& know that I appreciate you all for listening to me whine.)

A Vicious Circle

I just found out today that I no longer have that wonderful job that I was so excited to get & so desperately needed. Why? Because of security clearance that I needed to have. What could be in my past that is so terrible that might keep me from getting this clearance, you may ask? Am i a terrorist? No! Am I a thief? NO! Am I a threat to any kind of security? NO!!!

The only thing I can guess is that it's my credit, my financial situation (one of the generic reasons on what it could have been). It's a vicious circle, one that I may not be able to get out of. This year has been hell on my finances & my credit rating. I would be able to dig myself out of this hole if I had a job, but I can't get a job (at least this one) because of this fucking hole!

Yes, I plan on spending the rest of the day wallowing in my misery & watching Pirates. Johnny is never a disappointment & never hurts me. It may be better for me to be away from people & soak in my movies anyway.

So, what minimal holiday cheer I may have had has now gone down the toilet.

No music...I just don't feel like it.

Peace & Love

A Holiday Music Monday

Welcome to the Christmas Countdown...

Here are my holiday music picks on this, the week of "get me that!". I know I'm late for Hanukkah, terrible non-practicing Jew that I am, but made sure there were at least a couple Hanukkah songs included (Adam Sandler counts!)

I couldn't do quite as long a list as usual cuz I don't love holiday music, not nearly as much as I love other music, & I'm not feeling the holiday cheer.

I'm not down. per se, just not feeling the happy, bubbly, & oft religious music.

Don't get me wrong, I do love some of them, not necessarily for their words, but for their feel. Carol of the Bells, Little Drummer Boy, God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen; the melodies & harmonies...I just close my eyes & listen.

I hope y'all are having a happy holiday season. Remember the whole "Peace on earth & Goodwill towards men (& women)". In my opinion, that means: Even if you're an asshole, knock it off...at least until after the new year. Then you can make a resolution to not be an asshole, & that gives everyone an extra week without your shit. Thank you.

After you're done listening here, go check out Brittany's, from The Greer 5, choices! (Her's are a little more traditional.)

Peace & Love

A Parent's Worst Nightmare

Earlier this week, a tragedy happened to a fellow blogger, mom. Every (non-psycho) parent's worst nightmare. I have never met Shellie, though I do follow her on Twitter, but my heart goes out to her & her family for the loss of her 2 yr old son.

I have been fortunate enough to have never felt the pain that they must be feeling & I get teary just writing about it, & the thought of losing my one & only (pain-in-the-ass, beautiful, creative, smart, wonderfully weird) daughter.

There have fights & people attacking online about what happened that I have been lucky enough to catch only the slightest breath of, that I think are ridiculous. A mother has lost her baby, I don't care what you think is wrong with the story, that is the bottom line. If you don't have anything nice to say, just shut the fuck up.

I've never been a purveyor of pretty words, I'm more seaman than lady, & that is my bottom line right now: If you can't be supportive, if you can't be nice, just fuck off.

In case anyone should pass this along to her:
Shellie, you don't know us, but my husband & I are both so very sorry for your loss. A piece of my heart has broken for you & your family. I'm not good w/words, so *hugs* to you all.


Peace & Love

My TJ Maxx Experience

Victoria from Rocket XL was sweet enough to send me gift cards for TJ Maxx & Marshalls. I am not a shopper, not really. I'm not a very good "girl", I know.

Well, today I had time (for reasons I will explain later), so I headed over to TJ Maxx. It happened to be on my way home, so it worked out perfectly!

I looked around a little, since I've only been in TJ Maxx maybe once before. They have some of the cutest things! I got out of the store spending only $45.63 (ok, $2o.63 out of pocket~Thank you again Victoria!!!)

Here's what I got:

A child-size snuggie-like blanket for M (don't tell my anti-Snuggie friends!). A cute little bunny blanket for Gena's little man, Myles (Surprises are not my thing).

Teddy w/a blanket for my bff's little Sophia & a teddy for Toys For Tots

Ipod speakers for Christy (Told you that I'm terrible with surprises)

Like I said, I'm not a shopper, but I think I did pretty well for myself!

In case you haven't already, please don't forget to check out Carol-oke! I should be getting my Vado soon, so I may enter myself (or trick M into it)!

Next time I go shopping, I'm going to check out Marshalls!

Peace & Love

A Back To Work Music Monday!

Ok, none of these have anything to do w/going back to work, but that is what I am doing today! For some of my Twitter friends, you'll notice I got some of these from PS I Love You. I just love the sound of them. Again, I went lazy & went perusing other people's playlists & found songs I liked. I deleted some cuz I ended up with over 50 songs!

Next week, I think I'm going to do a Christmas list of songs that don't make me want to vomit.

If I'm talking about PS I Love You, then I gotta have MY Gerard in here!


Have a wonderful Monday, everyone!
Peace & Love

Happy Birfday to My Baby!!!!

On December 12th, 2003 Marissa Joleen came into this world, a month early, to parents who were scared shitless.

M was due on Jan 14th, Eric's & my anniversary, but as I had preeclampsia, & she was tiny for how far along I was, she was brought into this world a month early. They decided not to induce me & we are lucky for that. They tell me that if I had given birth to her naturally, she may not have survived. My little monkey had bounced around inside of me & tied her chord in a knot.

M was 4 lbs, 1 oz, & tiny like a little doll. She was wrinkly (she hadn't grown into her skin yet).

She quickly caught up to where she should be!

My beautiful, smart, pain-in-the-ass daughter.

Happy Birfday to my baby.

Peace & Love

Your Opinion is Needed!

Eric wanted opinions, but I don't think I can fit it into 140 characters for Twitter. Here goes & keep in mind, I am paraphrasing.

He got money today from work for wire taken in. The wire was given to him by his stuporvisor. He told me that he wanted to get a set of pipes for the midlifecrisismobile~fairly inexpensive (they slip on). We have Xmas & M's birfday taken care of. He said that that is what he wanted, I have some money to pay bills. Ok, no problem.

I didn't realize that he was going to order the pipes TODAY. He called his bro all excited that he had the money & his bro said to come over & that they could order it & Bro would put it on his card & Eric would give him the cash for it & have it delivered there so he can help E install. Done & Done.

My sis inlaw, freaked the hell out about this. Calling him deceitful & a thief. Saying that he was hiding this from me. He explained to her where he got the money, though it wasn't her business & said that I knew & that she could call me.

There are many problems with this story in my book & I got upset with him. 1. Why does he need to put it on Bro's card? He could have waited a couple of days & put it on ours! 2. I could have ordered it for him since he's barely computer literate. 3. Why does his fam need to know any of our business? I let you all know we're broke, but I don't give you dollars & cents. Our finances one way or another aren't anyone's business. 4. They live about 7 mi away, did it really need to be delivered there? If Bro wants to help install for male-bonding, he can come over here as well.

I have more problems, but this is taking too long. What do you think? How would you have reacted. Did I have reason to get mad? I need guys & girls info, pls!

Thank you!!!

Peace & Love

*I had pulled this down last night because I was doing the same thing he was, on a bigger level.*

My Mean Mommy by Marissa Cogley

I know this is hard to read, but M wrote this in crayon. I translated for those of you who may have problems reading Five Year Old. I have become quite adept at translating & will soon need to learn how to read Six Year Old. (You can click on her writing to enlarge.)

Here is her tale about how mean I am. I find it humorous enough on it's own, so I will not make comments to explain or defend myself. (Also, no music today. Just enjoy the story.)

I do not like the way you treat me because I don't like the way you treat me because I do like the...

You make me tell you what I want to have for breakfast & you make me pick up the toys by myself.

And the other thing I do not like the most the way you yell at me & you yell at me to do stuff just for you & I do not like it.

And I do not like the way you hit me because you smack on purpose & send me to my room.

And I do not like the way you me because and you not not make me eat stuff that I do not want to eat.

And she does not let me look at her book.

Enjoy your kids. Especially the smart(ass) ones. They'll be the ones paying for your retirement!

Peace & Love

Introducing Carol-oke!

T.J. Maxx & Marshalls are doing a great thing while inviting everyone to have some fun & giving them the chance to win awesome prizes! Hello, the chance $100 gift cards or a $5000 shopping spree? Not too shabby!

Now what great thing are they doing? Well, for every uploaded video from one of their original songs, they will make a $1 donation to Toys For Tots, a wonderful & worthy cause!

I'm tempted to do this myself, even though I can't sing & don't want my face shown anywhere. Unfortunately, I'm still waiting for my Xmas wish to come true!

For all of you brave people, & I know y'all are brave, I ask you to have fun! Make an awesome video! Send it in & then cut me in when you win! Just kidding...maybe.

I dare you all. Do it for the children! (Ha, I'm nothing if not a wonderful, guilt-giving mother!) If that doesn't convince you, do it for the chance to win FREE shopping!

Now, my friends, go make your video! Don't forget to check out the rules, though, first! Click HERE to visit the T.J. Maxx & Marshalls Carol-oke page.

Peace, Love & Good luck to you all!

My Dream of a Video Camera

You know the song/saying "All I want for Xmas is my 2 front teeth"? All I want is a video camera. Not an expensive one, a Flip or a Vado would suit my needs nicely!

I just went on vacation w/my family to beautiful Arizona & would have loved to video some of it for y'all! I tried on my camera & it just sucked up too much of the memory card.

I have many crazy & wonderful people who want me to vlog (they wanna here me rant & rave in person, I guess!).

I'd love for y'all to actually see my beautimous pain in the ass-I mean daughter! I meant daughter!- And the psycho activities of my dog. And we can't miss the humor of the sleeping hubby! (Ok, he may not want me to get a video camera...)

What is it that y'all want for Xmas & why?

Ok, this is from over a year ago & technology changes quite a lot in that amount of time, but this guy is funny & I love his review!

Peace & Love

What's To Come

I have less than one week lest of non-worker status. Yup, I'm going back to work on Monday after being off for over a year. I'm so nervous, but excited as hell, as well!

I've been frustrated here, so I don't know what is going to happen with this blog. I've been mostly whine-y here & I hate that! I want people to love what I'm saying & doing, but I know I can't please everyone.

I'm going to try to branch out, so it won't only be me bitching about something or another. I'm going to try to do some reviews (if anyone wants me to). Y'all know that you'll get honesty from me or this blog would be me blowing smoke & rainbows up your ass.

I'd be a beautiful princess, the perfect wife & mother...

Shrek 2 - Fairy Godmother Song | Movies & TV | SPIKE.com

Peace & Love

Listener's Choice Music Monday

For those of you who participated, I thank you. For those of you who didn't~Plllllllllttttttttttt (raspberry sound) on you! You will have another chance, when I get lazy again. (Play with me!)

I hope y'all enjoy this because I did not have anything to do w/any of these picks. These are from those of you who chose to play with me (& those of you that I badgered in to playing w/me) & I love the differences in them.

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday!

Because I didn't want to leave anyone's requests out & I found I actually like this lady!


Peace & Love

Just Who Do They Think I Am?

According to my email, I'm a desperate man w/a little dick, with rich friends wanting to give me free money! Oh, did I say I was desperate? Scuse me, Russian chicks want to marry me!

I love how these people send these to everyone! Dating sites (which a majority think I'm a man), mail order hos (in which also think I'm a man), South African princes & rich doctors or something in England (who don't care what I am, as long as I give them my banking info).

I know spam is spam, but I think if they looked into who they were sending crap to, they might actually get some response (from others besides stupid people~yes, I can say this because I too am sometimes stupid).

There was no point to this, I just get all that crap on a daily. PSA for the day: If you're going to spam me, please send me email on how to get bigger boobs, tell me hot GUYS want me (sorry, I don't swing towards the ladies), or that you're going to send me CASH & that you DON'T need my bank info!

One more PSA for the day, since I'm feeling generous: If you call me fat in the subject line, there is no friggin way in hell that I'm even considering opening it! I'm considering punching the sender in the face instead. You can just suck it!

This has nothing to do w/anything, but I was so jazzed to hear it yesterday!


Peace & Love

Oh, What You Must Put Up With!

Friends:

• Are there for you when you need them
• Play along w/you when you're saying the most ridiculous things
• Call you out for being an asshole, but love you anyway
• Put up w/your bullshit & drama
• Get the completely random things that come out of your mouth (sort of)
  
• Bring out the best & worst in you (hell, you have to be able to act like a child w/someone!)
• Will tell you you're cute, even when you look like death
• Like you for who you are (or why the hell would they still be there?)

For a weird change, I'm feeling warm & fuzzy. Don't hold it against me, it shouldn't last!

Thank you to those of you who put up w/my crap!



Peace & Love