The Un-social Social Networker

Ok, unsocial, antisocial. Tomay-to, tomah-to.

It's weird, at least for me, that I can spill (some of) my guts & talk to y'all through here or Twitter or Facebook & yet, I can't talk to you in person or where I'm in a position to be seen.

I went to the LA Mom's Night Out (put on by Mom TV ) last night & mainly stayed to myself or with the few people I knew. Kadi came outside to get me because I was being paged by Nicole & Gena online. I was inside long enough to wave hi to the camera & then slink back to my safe place.

I have been like this my entire life. I am always nervous around new people & I am nearly terrified in group situations (doesn't matter if I know people or not). I don't like to be the focus of anything (which is amazing since this is all about me, right?). A month or so ago, the lovely, beautiful, & silly, Brittany Greer posted my "Meet the Bloggers". My motto? Don't Trip (also known as the theme of my wedding day).

Right now because I don't feel good about myself, it's even worse. I feel (& look) fat & ugly, & that makes me even more uncomfortable around people.

If you meet me, please don't take my standoffishness (real word?) as me being bitchy or conceited or thinking I'm better than everyone around me (yes, I've heard all these things from people~after they took the time to get to know me.), I'm just shy. I'm not saying I'm not a bitch, cuz I totally am, but just give me a chance.

Maybe I will get better. Maybe I won't. I don't know.

I will make you all share my love of Glee.

Peace & Love.

Happy Birfday to My Sissy!

My baby seester is turning 28 today (wait, that makes me old), is turning 19 today. Kellers, I hope you have a wonderful birfday & know that M is extremely pissed that we don't get to see you. She has a present for you. I love you!

If any of you want to see some of my sissy's drawings, fabulous drawings (yes, the biatch got all the creativity), pls check her out on Facebook. Tell her I sent you & that you want to look at her fantabulistically wonderful drawings. I'm not biased or anything.

Peace & Love

Oh Glee, How I Love Thee!

As we already know, I'm a little off. Not like that! I'm perfectly normal, damn it! (Maybe not, since I'm arguing w/myself & imaginary people.) Aaaanyway...I've been down.

Money problems will do that. I'm looking for work & it's not going so well. I'm borrowing money (out the wazoo) from family, but it's like putting a band-aid on a giant gaping wound. I've been trying to either sleep my problems away or watch tv/movies to distract me.

I grew up watching, & digging, musicals (my grandparents had them & from what I can tell the love runs in the family). In this day & age, it makes me a little weird, I know. Don't get me wrong, I don't like them all. Hell, I haven't even seen The Sound of Music (insert collective gasp here). If you are a Twitter or Facebook friend, there will be times that you just get lines from some of the musicals (most recently The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas) from me. I'd apologize in advance, but if I was sorry, I wouldn't do it.

Also, if you've been reading my blog for more than a second, you'd see my love of music. I love all sorts (I tend to only post the upbeat for y'all), including some of the music Putumayo puts out, even though I don't understand most of the songs. Music soothes me. Plain & simple, music makes me happy.

Enter teenybopper show, Glee. I saw the commercials & like a lot of people, never thought twice about it. Sure I like Jane Lynch, but what the fuck do I care that she's got a show on tv? Then I kept seeing random things on FB from people saying how much they liked the show. Ok, I can't say that I don't like something if I haven't seen it, so I thought I'd give it a try (thank you Hulu!). They were already 4 or 5 episodes into the season & once I watched the first one, I had to watch them all!

I loved it. I loved the cheesiness of it, the high strung girl, the bad boy, the jock, the gay guy, the black chick, the Asian chick, the bitchy cheerleader, wheelchair guy...& the rest(here on Gilligan's Island!). I love watching the happenings in the storyline of them trying to get to Sectionals.

The songs, some I've heard & some I hadn't, all sounded great to me (ok, the jock doesn't blow me away, but nothing is perfect). Songs put together that I never would have listened to, made me search out the originals.

Again, music has made me happy. This show in all it's bitchy, cheesy, Slushee, funny, dance-y, musically wonderful glory helps to make me a happy camper when all I want to do is cry. Who can cry when a white guy is singin the Thong Song?!

If you wanna make fun of the show, watch it first, then you can make fun of it. But I hope you love it instead.

Ok, it also helps that they have some cutie-pies in it. I'm a sucker for a cutie in a little Mohawk!


Peace & Love

A Million Years Ago

Shit, I don't even know how long ago it was. Here is a pic of my bff & myself. Jeez, was I cute as a bug or what? I may never (ok, WILL never look like that ) again, this pic gives me a goal! Look at that chin...there's only one! Barb's momma just put this on FB & I had to share.

Here's to the good ol' days! *raise my bottle of water*

Peace & Love. Cheers

I've Been Told to Blog!

I wonder if this person just wants me away from Facebook. (Yes Sheri, I'm talking 'bout you! Heehee.) Workin, workin, workin...I should be workin (rawhide!)...but I'm not. I am here instead. I need to bring an audio recorder w/me when I drive. I had a blog planned out on the way to drop my daughter off at school & now I can't remember what it was about. It's gone. Completely.

I remember wanting to ask for donations (hint, hint) & if people were feeling generous & still had money left, wanting them to donate to a friend who is doing a Relay For Life.

I remember wanting to plug the Jack & Stench Show on CRN (fun & funny!). If you listen online (live) you can play on the chat board & see them through their webcam!

I remember wanting to plug Soap Blok soaps (which I adore, along with the person who makes them). If you go to her page on Facebook, you can ask her about ordering. If you donate to my wonderful cause, I have some fantabulous soaps, lotions, & lip balms that I will send you, but ONLY if you email me with your info! kimberlycogley@yahoo.com. Come on, people! Donate & smell yummy! Just kidding, no pressure.

I remember a convo I had this morning about wanting to limit my Starbucks intake to once a week & the possibility of quitting the smoking very soon (I'm not definite on the smoking, so please don't cheer me on just yet or give me any shit about it).

Getting older sucks! I talked to my brother yesterday & he was so excited cuz he thought he was turning 40 this year & a friend told him he was only going to be 39. He will only be 39. (Yes, my family is full of dorks. blood-related or not, it still runs in the family!) My cousin & a good friend just turned 30 within the last few days (Welcome to old age, guys!).

My 5 year old daughter sings the Pony song. (Yes, I'm up for mom of the year.) "Mom, what does hardy (she doesn't realize they're saying horny) mean?" "Baby, that's one I'll have to explain to you when you're older & you do NOT sing that song outside of the car, got it?!" Mom of the freakin' year, I tells ya! I need a tee-shirt made.

I'm starting to remember my blog! It had a circus ring master! And a thing, & another thing!

Penguins won the Stanley Cup on Friday! The hubby was jazzed since that's where he's from. I was jazzed because it gave me the chance to harrass one of my friends (Just one of the perks of being my friend!)

I discovered the joy of paying bills with Bill Pay through the bank (yes, it took me long enough). I looove it! I may start paying my bills on time! Thank you Bill Pay(imagine a pic of me w/my thumb up)!

I can't wait for the weekend so I can see some good friends for a gradumation party. (Congratulations Christy on gradumating! I think Tricia gradumated, too, so congratulations to her too!) It'll be a blast!

Peace & Love (& Starbucks for the rest of the week!)

It's Almost Friday Already!

So far it's been a pretty great week for me. I've still spent way too much time on Facebook & Twitter, got some naps in (pms is a real bitch!), & played more on the computer than I should have, but I've been semi-productive too!

As you can see, I've pertified my blog (not that the Poshpreneur didn't make it lovely before) by myself & made it just a little more me. (It took me over an hour to get the color scheme just right.)

I'm working to help save my bff money every month (I hope we can help her!). By doing so, I'm also getting in more training. Did I mention that I passed my test last week? In about a week I will be licensed to sell life insurance. I passed my debt certification. I'm doing all this to try to help people save money now & help them learn to save for the future (especially since we all know that by the time we're ready for Social Security, it'll be a thing of the past).

I got buttloads of laundry folded & put away (yes, my life is oh so exciting!)

I managed to find someone to take not only my kid (for the next 13 or so years), but 2 of Brittany's along with both of our husbands! We hope to go on vacation to some beach w/drinks that have those cute little umbrellas with the proceeds. (My fantasy world is great. As I told a friend, most people dream about hot chicks or men, but I dream of selling a cranky hubby & 5 yr old.)

I nearly fell asleep in class on Tuesday (it's not that it wasn't interesting, cuz it was. I was just having major problems keeping my eyes open!

I got to look at amazing pics of my embarrassing crush. Ahhhhhh...

And it's only Thursday!

Tomorrow should be interesting~it's Pet Day at school. We'll see how our 4 month old puppy (Haley) does. Wish me luck because I'm sure I'll need it!

I absolutely looooove me some Tori!

Peace & Love

My Embarrassing Little Secret

A glimpse into the way my mind works (written how I think). Sad, isn't it?

I have kinda dropped the ball on writing this last week. I'd like to say that it was because I was studying or because I started training for the Avon Walk or trying to find a cure for world hunger, but that is not the case. I have had my head in the books (Twilight Saga & The Host). I am a major procrastinator. I should be studying now, but I have all my wonderful friends on Twitter & Facebook & the JJS boards to keep me busy. I even went for a walk today (anything to keep me from studying!!!!). I walked 1 1/4 miles today. Not great, but hell it's a start & it got my fat ass off the couch!

I am a person who obsesses over things so when I start a new book, I'm screwed because nothing else gets done. I watched the Twilight movie about a month ago & have been obsessed ever since. That there Robert Pattinson is just beautiful on one of those weird ways. Yes, I'm a 30 year old woman crushing on a 22 yr old boy. Sue me. Just don't tell anyone because, well, it's embarrassing!! Because of this new crush , though, I did find the books. Yes, my sister told me about them before (I LOVE vampire stuff!), but I didn't want to read a young adult book! These books were wonderful (I've now read them all twice) & I can't wait for the New Moon movie to come out in November! I've told my hubby that that is what I want to to for my birthday. Yes, I'm going to brave the millions of teenage girls at the movie theater opening weekend!

Yes, I'm still smoking & still need to quit. I think the walking will help me w/that because I need to breath.

I'm still working on getting my fundraising stuff out to you. I have some absolutely wonderful-smelling soaps, lotions, lip balms, & candles for you. I've got the knowledge of what I want to do, but not on HOW to do it. I'll be working on it (ok, with a little help from a friend)!

Is there something wrong with me? Yes. Yes, I think there is.


Peace & Love

Sometimes Life Just Gets in the Way

I always have the best of intentions. I plan on spending time on a blog, looking for a job, doing my online studying, but it seems that something always seems to come up. We have to go to Target, go to the in-laws, we have psycho dogs terrorizing our house, or play on Twitter or Facebook, etc...

Does anything that I had wanted to do get done? No. There are loads of laundry waiting to be done, bathrooms that need to be cleaned & a computer class just calling my name, telling me I need to get my ass in gear. What am I doing? I'm writing instead.

Someone needs to teach me how to make a schedule & stick to it. I want to get everything done, but it always seems that there is something else to do (Damn you, Pirates!)

I am going to make it my goal (for the month) to try to stick to a schedule. I know I will feel like a better person for it.

My goal list for tomorrow:

• Study-I want to get through at least 3 chapters (I was gonna say 4, but lets keep it realistic).
• Work on this blog to try to make it better
• Clean bathrooms
• Pirates of the Caribbean (Hey, I must do what is on the list!)

I'm trying to start off small & hopefully I can accomplish these things & work at growing to be a better person. Wish me luck!

Peace & Love.