Yes, it brings all my insecurities to the surface. The last time I held a steady job, was about a year ago, & by the time I left I had zero self worth. I was in a place where I couldn't do anything right & the harder I tried the worse it got. My relationship with my manager was extremely bad & she I were alone in the office quite a bit. What hurt the most was that she & I were friends at some time during my almost 10 yrs there, ok that & the fact that she almost left us without a place to live .(We had sold our house & were buying a new one. Everything was almost done, but she held up my work verification & then told them I had given notice & then almost didn't change it cuz she didn't like lying. Still a little angry, can you tell? It's taking everything I've got not to say mean things.)
So now a year later I have an interview for a job that I desperately need. Looking at the job description, yes, there are a few things I've never done, but I can learn! A majority of it is right up my alley!
If I get the position, my life would be so much better! I would be able to pay bills. Not worry about buying food. We would be able to have Christmas!!!
I guess this was my drawn out way of saying: If you pray, please pray for me. If you don't, or if you want, on top of praying, please cross everything you possibly can without hurting yourself. My family & I thank you!
If you have any advice, please share!
Peace & Love






Barb's momma just put this on 









My little (or not so little, anymore) puppy has gone missing. She is a pain in the ass, but like the other pains in my life, I love her. I went through my morning routine this morning starting out, without a dog on my feet, & made my coffee. Then what did I do? I went & sat outside as usual. I used to do it because I smoked ( haven't in a few months now) & then because the dog had to potty. It's friggin cold out there now! I had no reason to go out anymore, so why did I do it?