Too Good To Be True

If something seems too good to be true, it usually is. I thought this would be the perfect job for me, the perfect place, the perfect hours, the perfect chance to learn something new...of course, it wasn't to be for me.

I got all excited, which I try to never do, & ended up heartbroken, embarrassed & ashamed.

Heartbroken that I lost this chance to help my family get back on it's feet. Heartbroken that I lost the chance to get into a good company & learn something new, so I won't always be a secretary. Heartbroken that I've lost hope that I could be something bigger & have the chance to grow.

Embarrassed because now everyone knows how unworthy I am. Yes, I know I posted about it, but wouldn't you all start to wonder why I never talked about this great job I had mentioned getting. I'm not a liar & it's easier to get it out of the way.

Ashamed because I am unworthy somehow. I have never truly done a bad thing in my life, but there is something there that kept me from getting the clearance that I needed. It makes me feel like I will forever be just not good enough. Everyone will hear & either pity me or gloat.

For reasons like this, I am scared shitless of everything good in my life because it is so easily taken away.

I'm sorry I'm such a downer today. I'm going to blame it on PMS, just like I do every time I'm in a bad mood. All I need is some Midol & a couple of drinks & I should be right as rain.

Now I'm gonna go cry over something stupid like having to return my new, beloved Vado HD.

Peace & Love (& know that I appreciate you all for listening to me whine.)

My TJ Maxx Experience

Victoria from Rocket XL was sweet enough to send me gift cards for TJ Maxx & Marshalls. I am not a shopper, not really. I'm not a very good "girl", I know.

Well, today I had time (for reasons I will explain later), so I headed over to TJ Maxx. It happened to be on my way home, so it worked out perfectly!

I looked around a little, since I've only been in TJ Maxx maybe once before. They have some of the cutest things! I got out of the store spending only $45.63 (ok, $2o.63 out of pocket~Thank you again Victoria!!!)

Here's what I got:

A child-size snuggie-like blanket for M (don't tell my anti-Snuggie friends!). A cute little bunny blanket for Gena's little man, Myles (Surprises are not my thing).

Teddy w/a blanket for my bff's little Sophia & a teddy for Toys For Tots

Ipod speakers for Christy (Told you that I'm terrible with surprises)

Like I said, I'm not a shopper, but I think I did pretty well for myself!

In case you haven't already, please don't forget to check out Carol-oke! I should be getting my Vado soon, so I may enter myself (or trick M into it)!

Next time I go shopping, I'm going to check out Marshalls!

Peace & Love

My Dream of a Video Camera

You know the song/saying "All I want for Xmas is my 2 front teeth"? All I want is a video camera. Not an expensive one, a Flip or a Vado would suit my needs nicely!

I just went on vacation w/my family to beautiful Arizona & would have loved to video some of it for y'all! I tried on my camera & it just sucked up too much of the memory card.

I have many crazy & wonderful people who want me to vlog (they wanna here me rant & rave in person, I guess!).

I'd love for y'all to actually see my beautimous pain in the ass-I mean daughter! I meant daughter!- And the psycho activities of my dog. And we can't miss the humor of the sleeping hubby! (Ok, he may not want me to get a video camera...)

What is it that y'all want for Xmas & why?

Ok, this is from over a year ago & technology changes quite a lot in that amount of time, but this guy is funny & I love his review!

Peace & Love