Mentally Inked

I've Moved!

2010-02-20T11:16:00.000-08:00

I hope you come with me! My new site is up & running & I am so excited for you to come see.

http://mentallyinked.com

Don't forget to follow me on Google Friend!

Thank you!!!

Peace & Love

Finally...It's Music Monday!

2010-02-15T09:24:00.000-08:00

What, no outrage that I'm late? How dare you! That's just rude! ; )

For those of you who care, I'm sorry I'm late, but at least it's up! I just did it this morning because I've been gone all weekend & I'm just not starting this at 10:30 at night.

I hope you enjoy! I hope y'all have a great Monday!

Peace & Love

Feelin Funky

2010-02-14T08:00:00.000-08:00

I did not have a great week. For the most part, it wasn't too bad, just a feeling of being off. I did what I usually do & watched movies. While they entertained me, they couldn't pull me out this time. This isn't unusual for me, but it doesn't happen very often.

Friday, was when the whole week came to a head! Yup, it was the day that really sucked a big one! I was to get together w/my bff. We haven't hung out in a while, so I was jazzed! Then her sis & friend were w/her, as well, & I was bummed. (I like them both & we did have fun, so it wasn't a big deal, but I was majorly bummed at first.)

Then hubby gets all happy that I am still down in the IE as he's going to finish the work day by home so I can stay down & pick up Marissa. Ok, unexpected & it sucks cuz I wanna go home eventually, but whatever. I stayed & shopped w/bff & her sis & then grabbed some food & then headed over to my parents' house.

I pulled into the driveway, made sure that I was far enough over as not to hit Keith's car & then stopped. I had my foot on the brake & was fiddling w/something (Shit! It bothers me that I don't remember what! I wasn't even on the phone!). As you may have guessed, I ran into my parents garage door. I took my foot off the brake cuz every normal person puts the friggin car in park as soon as they stop, while in the driveway! Yeah, I didn't. I didn't even feel the car moving, so I didn't realize it was until it stopped~with a loud noise.

Long story short, my sis & I pushed the dent out, so the door still opens & closes. There are dings in the door, none on my car. I was freaked out & called my parents right away (they were on vacay) & when I didn't get an answer, I texted. I felt sick for the several hrs it took for me to hear back from them. I think everything is ok, but you never know...

In case you're reading, I'm sorry Mom!

I really hope this week is better!

She always soothes me.

Peace & Love

So You Had a Bad...Week: Mamavation Mon & Food Journal

2010-02-14T07:46:00.000-08:00

Sun, Feb 7th
was bad & I'm not going to record it for you so = p

Mon, Feb 8th
coffee w/splenda & 2% milk
hummus & carrots & wheat pita chips (for those of you following along, you know that a pita chip attacked me today & tried to slice my tongue)
32 oz water
coffee w/splenda & 2% milk (i was cold! much better than cocoa...less calories)
2o jumping jacks (Lisa Samples made me move)
roast, potatoes, carrots (I even put some meat back since I cut it & it turned out to be a ton!)
32 oz water

Tues, Feb 9th
about 5 sips of coffee in the usual way
eggs w/roast beef, mushrooms, cheese, 2 pc of whole wheat toast w/fabio (i only ate 1 1/2 pc) & a nanner
did about 10 min of Hip Hop Abs
stretched for 5 min
20 jumping jacks
hummus w/carrots & wheat pita chips, yogurt w/cinnamon, honey & granola
32 oz of water
stretched (about a min) & then ran/jogged in place & around the house for about 3 min *wheeze*
50 jumping jacks (yes, my boobs hurt between the running & this, i'd be ok if they fell off!)
32 oz of water
roast beef, carrots & tiny bit of tater. 1/2 pc choc cake
still drinkin water

Wed, Feb 10th
coffee w/sugah & 1% (I ran out of splenda)
whole wheat bagel w/lite cream cheese & a nanner
hummus, carrots, & wheat pita chips
32 oz of water
1 choc chip cookie
frito pie (fritos, cheese & chili), smart ones mint ice cream thingee, 1 cup of v8~needed a veggie (for anyone wondering, yes, it's completely nasty after mint ice cream.)
32 oz of water

Ok, my week was bad-ish food-wise. I didn't even finish my food journal, not cuz it was horrible, cuz I didn't feel like it. I had obviously some very good moments, but not all of them were.

I had a rough week & it affected everything I did. Yup, I put on a lb & I got a new scale. The scale is a little more detailed & a lot more mean. The #'s on the new scale are higher up. (Next week I will start doing by that one & all, ALL of my previous #s will not matter.)

For Kia: I only had soda twice this week. But sadly there were 2 days this week where I only had 32 oz of water.
For Lisa: See, I didn't lie! I actually moved! Now I need to do that more than once a week!

I have a lot to work on this week! I hope that mentally I can get my head around it. This funk really messed me up (for those of you who don't know, I'll write another post about it.). I really just hope that it is done!!!

I know that last week I didn't read most of your posts. I'm sooo sorry & WILL do better this week. (I was even off of twitter for a good part of 2 days!)

For all the new sistas: Welcome!

Everyone: I'm sorry that I'm sucking this week!!!!!

Peace & Love (& hugs to all!)

Oh To Be Clueless

2010-02-08T17:07:00.000-08:00

Oh, if life could only be like the stupid/teen movies! Having an off day today. Not bad, just off. When I'm feeling off or down, I tend to throw on movies.

I'm kind of ashamed to say what I watched today. I'm not ashamed of the movies, most of you are used to my taste by now. I'm ashamed to say in case any of my Sistas are reading. (I watched movies instead of working out.)

Just watched Romy & Michele's High School Reunion& watching Clueless now (we'll leave it at that). You have to love the idiocy of both. They're dumb(ish), but happy! Everything works out in the end, everyone is happy!

OMG, I could quote Clueless forever, I love this movie so! & Paul Rudd...*drool*

Ok, I got distracted. I'm sure there was a point in there somewhere. Or maybe I was just having an off day & watched cheese movies that make me happy. (Ok, I watched Wimbledon & The Wedding Date~Dermot Mulroney=yumminess~, too.)

Sorry, there may have been a point when I started this, but if there was, it's gone. I distracted myself w/pretty faces. Anyway, I'm in a better mood now! ; )

Peace & Love

A Let's Try Something New Music Monday

2010-02-07T15:48:00.000-08:00

Most of you know my love/hate relationship w/Playlist.com, & well the hate part finally won out. I love the simplicity of playlist.com, but I hate not being able to find some of the songs I wanted.

I may try out a few different sites, I'm not sure yet, but this week I'm using Groove Shark. It's definitely different & I'm not sure I like it yet.

I think it'd be kinda nice to have a new, cute playlist to go w/my new site. Stay tuned cuz it's coming soon!!!

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday!

*Grrrr I hate when songs aren't what they're supposed to be! Took me forever to get them how I wanted it & I didn't listen first! Sorry about that! I'm aware that Blue Monday is from New Order! I didn't mean for that one to be on this list!

Peace & Love

Diary of a Mad Fat Woman:Mamavation Mon & Food Journal

2010-02-07T08:40:00.000-08:00

Ok, I'm not really mad. Here is my food Journal for the week w/a tiny bit of exercise thrown in.

Sun, Jan 31st
Coffee w/1% milk & splenda
Breakfast: wheat bagel w/Fabio & a nanner
24 oz of water down
24 oz of water down
lunch: hummus w/carrots & most of a strawberry yogurt that m decided she didn't like. i cup v8 berry
Dinner: eggs w/roast beef, mushrooms, avocado & cheese. wheat bagel w/Fabio. small cup of cream soda. 2 pc of bacon (stinkin hubby had to cook it & it had to smell so good!), icky v8 low sodium (1 cup)
1 sliver of chocolate chip danish & cup of 2% milk

Mon, Feb 1st
coffee w/splenda & 2% milk
raisin brain w/ 1 or 2% milk (at mom's)
lean pocket garlic chicken, mushroom & wht sauce, hummus & carrots
hot cocoa made w/2%
chili, fritos, cheese & cup of cream soda

I walked around the mall today. not much, but it counts!!!!

Tues, Feb 2nd
coffee w/splenda & 2% milk
Smart ones breakfast sammich (canadian bacon egg & cheese), nanner
danced around the kitchen (food makes me happy, i guess) = )
Smart Ones roast beef & mashed tatos, (m's bowl-full of) yogurt, honey, granola & cinnamon (yum!)
about a tablespoon of cookie dough
cheddar cheese & apple (prob more cheese than i need, but i'll adjust next time)
48 oz of water down so far
did 20 jumping jacks w/Francee Haydel on twitter
24 oz of water
2 sm slices of turkey roast (i made it!!!) & 4 slices of sweet potato
a little more water

Wed, Feb 3rd
coffee in the usual way
Smart Ones breakfast sammich w/cheese, egg & canadian bacon & a nanner
1 piece of turkey roast torn up & put into 2 med tortillas w/1 slice of cheddar ripped in 1/2 (so yum!) & plain yogurt w/cinnamon, honey & granola (ah heaven!)
48 oz of water so far
20 lunges (thanks to Francee Haydel on twitter)
24 oz of water
2 slices of turkey roast & mac n cheese
a little more water

Thurs, Feb 4th
coffee w/Splenda & 2% milk
wheat bagel w/a slice of cheddar & a nanner, 1 cup of v8 berry
24 oz of water
hummus & carrots, yogurt w/granola, honey & cinnamon
24 oz of water
scrubbed dishes (yes & i'm counting as exercise) & did 10 girly push-ups & 10 crunches (w/Francee on twitter)
eggs & turkey bacon (5 pieces-a lot, I know)
yogurt w/honey, cinnamon, & granola
24 oz of water

Problems: I'm getting grossed out with all the chewing. Everything is getting mushy & the textures are making it hard for me to eat slow. I want to either rush through it or not eat. I don't like the mushy!

Fri, Feb 5th
coffee w/splenda & 2%- 2 cups
kashi go lean crunch w/2% milk
24 oz of water
lean cuisine ravioli
32 oz of water
crap! no fruits or veggies today! downed a cup of v8, yuck!
nachos w/carne asada & sour cream (my go-to junk) & dr pepper
32 oz of water

Sat, Feb 6th
coffee w/the usual
1/2 of a carne asada burrito (meat & tortilla only), 1 cup of v8
32 oz of water
grabbed a turkey burger patty at my mom's (literally just grabbed it out of the fridge & ate it~it was cooked), oh & 1/2 a piece of chocolate cake
Carl's Jr Grilled cheese (meat bacon, cheese~I won't do it again, I didn't like it much) & fries & root beer
16 or 17 oz of water
When I run around, I have a hard time meeting my water goal. & As you can see, today was not a very good eating day!

I did fairly well most of the week w/my eating. I ate slow(Thank you, Pete Cohen), I grossed myself out & may not want to eat again~ever. I lost 1/2 a lb this week. Not great, but the scale at least didn't go up.

I didn't move as much as I had hoped, but I did a lot of running around the house, even if it was just to pee...& trust me, I did run to pee. I have a friend on Twitter that is making me get off the computer & do 20 of something, maybe I need random people to do this as well!

My goal for this week again is to get my ass moving. I feel the weight will come off easier if I move!

Ok, there's more video than I wanted &the quality is shit, but the beginning was the part I wanted.

Peace & Love

Fun w/Friends

2010-02-03T21:29:00.001-08:00

Last week Gena from Fairytales & Puppy Dog Tails (formerly known as the Morris Bunch) paid Cali a little visit!

Kadi & I were lucky enough to be a stop on her trip! For anyone lucky enough to know Kadi, you know that where ever she goes, some sort of wackiness will ensue.

I would have had this video up sooner, but I had hoped to clean it up some. I had done just that when my computer froze & I lost my changes. Must be a sign, right?

It was so great to meet Gena! It wasn't really like meeting her, though, it was like seeing an old friend that you haven't seen in a while. If you've read Gena's blog or had the pleasure of talking to her on Twitter or somewhere, it's like you've met her already. She's the same person (which is lovely)...yep, she's a dork! A dork with the cutest tummy ever!

Thank you both for a wonderful evening out! I can't wait until Gena comes out again!

Peace & Love

Update

2010-02-02T05:00:00.000-08:00

I was just reading through some of my old posts cuz I was curious to see how long I've had the ol' Mentally Inked open. While reading, I found out 3 things. 1. MI will be a year old in March (already!) 2. At the end of June, I'll have been a non-smoker for a year! (pause for applause) 3. Some of my posts aren't half bad!

In the next couple of weeks I will be moving over to Word Press. Yes, I'm making the change! I am pretty excited about that & would be already writing over there, if I were happy w/the appearance, but I am not.

I will let you all know when it happens so you can join me!

Peace & Love

Happy Music Monday!

2010-01-31T08:58:00.000-08:00

I took a little break from Music Monday last week cuz, well, I just wasn't feelin it. So now I'm back (from outer space), & you now get some fun stuff.

I have been watching the Bring It On movies, as most of you know (& are disgusted by), & so I decided to use some of the music from them & Stick It. I even used some songs from other movies I've been watching lately. Anyway, then I went 80s & 90s, which I blame on Victoria. I told her I'd put NKOTB in & I did! Some are in there cuz they're just plain fun!

My point is this: I had fun w/this one & I hope you enjoy it. If you don't, I figure there's no pleasing you, so you can suck it. Ok, that's just mean! Enjoy & don't make me be mean to you!

Have a wonderful & reminiscent Mon!

If you can name some of the other movies, you win a mental gold star!

Peace & Love

Food Journal/Mamavation Monday

2010-01-31T08:29:00.000-08:00

Mon, Jan 25th

coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast: eggs w/turkey, cheddar cheese, & avocado & 2 pc of wheat toast w/Fabio
hot cocoa made w/1% milk
Lunch: Turkey, Provolone & avocado on wheat toast (sammich-mm mm m mm mm) w/yogurt, honey, & granola
Dinner: Wendy's chicken sammich & caesar salad
72 oz of water so far
sliver of choc chip danish (pms, you threaten to take away my sweets, we're gonna have a problem)

I chewed as slowly as I could. Sometimes, I had to remind myself.

Tues, Jan 26th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
breakfast: kashi go lean crunch
yummy hot cocoa
24 oz of water
I DID LUNGES!!!! OMG, THANK YOU SARAH FOR SUGGESTING I DO THEM WHILE ON THE PHONE! I HATE THEM, BUT I ACTUALLY DID THEM!!!!
Lunch: Lean Pocket the garlic chicken one, 1 nanner
24 oz of water
16 oz of water
Dinner: Second verse, same as the first...j/k We had Wendy's again, so the same thing as last night minus the danish

Wed, Jan 27th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
breakfast/lunch: Hummus & whole wheat pita chips, 1 cup of v8 berry (yummy, all of it!)
1 happy cow cheese
1 cup of v8 berry
roast beef, mashed tatoes & carrots, broccoli, cauliflower (sm cup of cream soda)
72 oz of water

Breakfast & lunch is bad, I know. I went to the store & missed breakfast. I just got my pyramid & don't really feel like eating eating. But I'm making up for it. Get this, I'm making dinner! Ok, pick your jaw up of the floor. Yup, I'm making a roast!

Thurs, Jan 28th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast: Lean Pocket w/eggs bacon & cheese
Lunch: Hummus, carrots & whole wheat pita chips
Dinner: Chili, Fritos, & cheese (I ate slow & savored) sm cup of cream soda
Dessert: 1 snickerdoodle & 1 tiny piece of dough
64 oz of water (I fell asleep before being able finish)

Fri, Jan 29th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast: Eggs w/roast beef (yep, from my roast!), mushrooms, & cheese & a whole wht bagel w/Fabio
Lunch: Hummus, wheat pita chips & carrots
1 snickerdoodle
48 oz of water so far
12 oz blue moon
Dinner: clam chowder, 1 biscuit, 1/2 size portion crab alfredo, 1 margarita (Red Lobster-so super yummy all of it!) I think I got a bite of salad in there too b4 dinner came
16 oz of water

I had dinner w/friends at Red Lobster. Yummy!

Sat, Jan 30th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast:eggs w/roast, mushrooms & cheese & a wheat bagel w/Fabio
Lunch: Hummus w/carrots & wheat pita chips, v8 berry
1 sugar cookie w/sprinkles
Dinner: nachos w/carne asada, cheese, & sour cream & a sm cup of cream soda
64 oz of water

I've lost 3 lbs this week! I'm back at the weight when I started (I think...Leah?)! I think most of you know that I am on medication for my thyroid &for high blood pressure. A couple weeks ago, I was out of both for a few days-1 week & put on 5 lbs that week. Last week I was at 214.5 & was happy, but thought it was a fluke & didn't mention it.

I've come to realize how important my medicine is. Yes, I know they're important to my health or I wouldn't be on them, but they are also important to my weight. I put on over 30 lbs last year before we knew I had a thyroid problem. The year before, I trained for the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer & not only did I not lose any weight, I put it on. WTF, right? Meds are important!

Anyway, while not eating perfectly, I have cleaned up my act a lot & I think it's starting to show. My goal for this week is to start exercising. Short & simple, that is my goal.

I have been eating slower thanks to Pete Cohen (I made that my goal for this last week) & I think it makes a big difference.

Peace & Love (& more lbs off in the new week!)

Kim (Pity) Party of 1, Your Table Is Ready

2010-01-25T11:35:00.000-08:00

When everything seems to be going to shit, it's so hard to stay positive! Like for everything else lately, I'm going to blame the dreaded pms. I feel like I want to cry right now & I'm not even sure why.

Ok, maybe I having a feeling. I had a wonderful chat with a friend that I haven't spoken to in a while, & all the crap (that y'all have already read about & are over) came back to me as I was sharing.

The job loss still brings me to tears. I haven't been able to look for another job. I need to get over this crap! It's gone! Yes, it was so fucking perfect for me that it's scary, but it obviously wasn't meant to be.

My dryer has a split personality; it wants to either scorch my clothes (towels, sheets, whatever) or not dry them at all.

I don't know if you've heard or not, but my heater seems to have gotten that same split personality. It has been under 60 degrees in my house for several days now.

I seem to be having problems w/my eating. I know a lot of you don't read my food journal, & I don't blame you. It's boring & doesn't concern you.

The biggest pain to me/us lately? The wonderful rain that Cali has needed, tried to take my house out! Ok, it tried to help us get a skylight. I see that now! I wish it had given us a little more warning. It started to swell & then finally started to break away. Eric finally had to pull part of it down, so it didn't fall (wet drywall is very heavy) & shatter the glass on our shower.

Here is my new roof-light. It doesn't show me the sky, but I have a fab view of the roof!

Thanks for lettin me vent.

Let's leave this on a happy note. I don't know what he's saying, but it makes me feel good.

Peace & Love

The Not-So Music Monday

2010-01-25T11:13:00.000-08:00

I know I usually do a Music Monday. I couldn't make myself do it this week. I just didn't have it in me. I've been so blah this weekend, that it didn't get done.

Sorry.

Here is a reason to be ashamed of me (It's kinda musical, right?):

Bring it On - Opening | Movies & TV | SPIKE.com

Peace & LoveBr

My Food Journal Jan 18th

2010-01-25T11:00:00.000-08:00

Mon, Jan 18th

Coffee, w/splenda & whole milk
Breakfast: maple & brown sugar made w/whole milk
Lunch: Chicken, spinach & whatever (i need to look) Lean Pocket, plain yogurt w/honey & honey granola w/nuts (mmmmmm)
24 oz Propel grape
Snack: 1 pumpkin seed flat bread (cracker) w/1 slice of cheddar
hot cocoa w/1% milk
Dinner: LeanCuisine baked chicken, mashed tatoes, stuffing
more yogurt w/honey & granola

Still workin on my 2nd 24 oz of water. I'm so very behind.

Ok, this doesn't look too bad. I didn't even eat the hamburger helper w/hubby & the kidlet (& yes, I do like it).

Tues, Jan 19th
coffee w/splenda & 1% milk (i went to the store!)
Breakfast: Egg, bacon, & cheese lean pocket, an icky nanner
Snack: pumpkin seed flat bread cracker w/2 happy cow light cheeses (yum)
hot cocoa made w/1% milk
Lunch: lean pocket (same as yesterday) & salad w/avocado, blue cheese crumbles & balsamic vinaigrette
dinner: steak & scalloped tatoes (I'm guessing I needed more protein cuz I had more steak)
Dessert: the yogurt, granola stuff
72 oz of water (thanks to Lisa & Jennifer!)- Ok, I barely kept in the last 24 oz...We were chugging!
I guess I'm not doing as good as I had planned. I understand processed foods are bad, but they are easier for people who if given a choice between something easy (ie frozen) & having to cook, I'll pop somethin in the microwave almost every time. I'm not a cooker & I ususally wait until I need to eat NOW if I'm not munching.

Wed, Jan 20th

coffee with splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast: Smart Ones Canadian Bacon breakfast sammich
Chugged 24 oz of water (now I hafta pee)
Hot cocoa made w/1% milk
Chugged another 24 oz of water (can u see my eyeballs float?)
Chugged 12 oz of water
Lunch: Chicken garlic something Lean Pocket (yummy), salad like yesterday & the yogurt stuff like b4, but instead of a reg bowl, I stole one of M's (from when she first started solids)
Chugged other 12 oz of water
so far another 8 oz, i'd guess
Dinner: Frito pie (i'm blaming it on hormones or Kadi...or even Jennifer! Friggin chili!)
2 pieces of See's for dessert-you guessed it, hormones! terrible, but so worth it!

Thurs, Jan 21st

2 cups of coffee, 1 w/splends & 1% milk, 1 w/sugar & whole milk
Drank 48 oz of water
Lunch: Pepperoni pizza Lean Pocket
Hot cocoa w/1% milk
24 oz water
Dinner: Smart ones Roast Beef & Mashed Tatoes & a banana

Fri, Jan 22nd
cup of coffee w/ splenda & 1% milk
Breakfast : Bacon egg & cheese lean pocket
hot cocoa made w/1% milk
24 oz of water
24 oz of water
grilled cheddar & provolone cheese sammich & cheese & broccoli soup & salad
24 oz of water
Dinner: nachos w/carne asada & sour cream & dr pepper
Still workin on the water...ok, finished another 24 oz
2 pcs of See's...I had too!

Ok, I only went up to Friday because well, I forgot, I got lazy, & it went downhill from dinner on Fri. I remember bits & pieces, but I don't want to write it incomplete.

I feel like I did mostly better w/the eating...until the weekend came. I don't know what it is. I keep blaming my husband, that it's his fault that I eat crappy when he's home. I know I need to be able to do well on my own, whether around other people or not.

What do I need to do? Is it in my head? Is it my confidence (or lack there of), like I'm trying to make myself fail? Do I wanna be fat for the rest of my life, waiting for a heart attack to take me? Why am I fighting myself? Wow, I am dark today! Sorry! ; )

My goal for the week:
Take everything one day at a time & try not to get too down on myself.

Peace & Love

Snow Day!!!

2010-01-22T09:41:00.000-08:00

I declared today a snow day...HOORAY! I got to the freeway & there were a few flurries, no biggy. I drove a little ways & my car was being attacked by them! (I'm ashamed to say, I forgot my Vado this morning!)

I don't know if you remember (or were around) last winter. One fine winter's day my hubby tried to go to work & was stuck on the freeway~for 7 hrs~3 exits away. The lovely 15 freeway was shut down & he was in between exits so he couldn't turn around.

Now see, I thought about this, & I decided that there was no way in hell I was going to chance getting stuck on the very same freeway like that! He has the capability to pee in a bottle, where I, myself, do not. Not to mention that I left my friggin water bottle at home (something that rarely happens).

So far, my kidlet is lovin me. We've already had hot cocoa. She's already had popcorn & fruit roll ups (she had breakfast before we left). She's layin on the couch w/a heating pad, so she's warm & cozy (ok, & she already hurt herself).
She's now shoved the heating pad up her shirt to keep warm. Yeah, we're not gonna show a pic.

Happy Friday! I hope y'all stay safe & warm!

Peace & Love

Mamavation...I've Been a Bad Bad Girl

2010-01-17T19:32:00.000-08:00

Fri-Jan 15th

a cup of coffee w/splenda & whole milk (it was all i had)
breakfast: a bowl of cheerios & a banana
snack: 1 pc of pumpkin seed flat bread w/ 1 slice of cheddar cheese
lunch: 1 fried chicken thigh w/1 slice of cheese in a tortilla
dinner: nachos w/carne asada, & sour cream, dr pepper
water: still workin on it!

Ok, today was not great, but I really could have done worse! I was hungry, I could have had more chicken for lunch, but I stuck w/one piece. The nachos, I could have eaten more, until I felt sick, but I stopped. Obviously, I didn't make it to a week of no soda, but I can start again.

Sat-Jan 16th

a cup of coffee w/splenda & whole milk
Breakfast/Lunch: 1 pc of fried chicken, 1 slice of cheddar cheese, 2 flour tortillas
Dinner: Mushroom swiss burger w/fries & iced tea, oh & a salad w/ranch
Dessert: I split a sundae w/hubby

Water: Um, I drank some...

I kinda slept in, so I had breakfast & lunch together. The Mushroom swiss burger could have been worse, I wanted country fried steak. Hey, I shared the sundae!

Sunday-Jan 17th

a cup of coffee w/splenda & whole milk (I'm going shopping tomorrow)
Breakfast: 1 egg over easy (minus the yolk that ended up in my hair~it's a gift, I know.) & 2 flour tortillas. oh & i little box of juicy juicy apple juice~yes, I stole my kid's juice.
Lunch/Dinner: Steak w/Parmesan & shrimp, loaded mashed potatoes, mozzarella sticks & iced tea, choc mousse for dessert

I'm a little behind on my water (it's 7:18 now) & I've got 48 oz down.

As you can say, I have not have a good food day. Tomorrow is the start of a new week. I hope to do better.

Goals for the new week:

Screw moving, I need to get some exercise, even if it's just starting out slow
I need to go to the store & get me some good food
Take my meds every day
Drink my water~chug, Chug, CHUG!!!!
Since I'm going to the store for good food, I may as well eat it

I have started off poorly, but I am more aware of what I eat & feel guilty over every bad thing that goes into my mouth.

I will do better this week. I will do better this week. I will do better this week. I will do better this week.

Peace & Love

p.s. DRINK!!!!

I'm So Lazy Music Monday

2010-01-17T14:11:00.001-08:00

Why oh why do I spend so much time on these??? Yes, I use songs that I have used before, if I think they fit, but these playlists still take me for-ever! Ok, I don't feel this one is complete, but I'm feeling incredibly lazy & don't wanna mess with it anymore.

I hope y'all have a wonderfully, fantastically, amazingly, great Monday (in other words, I hope y'all have the day off or if you're a SAHM, I hope your kids all nap or let you have more than 5 min of peace!)

Peace & Love

I Will Survive

2010-01-14T16:00:00.001-08:00

For those of you following along at home, you know I trying to be one of the Mamavation Moms, you know to lose weight & get healthy. I didn't make it.

Yes, I'm a little sad. Yes, I'm a little disappointed. Yes, I went through a few hours of feeling like I wasn't good enough, I can't even be a fat person well enough to do this contest right. I'm not devastated, though.

It doesn't change my life that I didn't make it. I'm still me. Short & sweet: I'm gonna keep on trekkin.

I don't need to lose weight for a contest or a contest to lose weight. I need support & I have found it with the Sistahood (& of course, my wonderful friends).

Thank you for your support. I love & appreciate you all for it.

Peace & Love

How Many Times Can They Screw Me?

2010-01-14T15:59:00.000-08:00

For you new people (Hi, welcome), you may not have heard about the job that was mine & then gone. It just keeps getting worse...or better, I'm not sure.

I talked to the mom at M's school today (she helped me get the in w/the company) & she overheard them talking about me. The guy hiring still wants me (woohoo!). She, herself, wants me as a secretary, she just needs to talk her boss to convince him that they need a secretary. (I don't wanna be a secretary again, but a job is a job!)

So I'm fucking jazzed that they still want me, right? Even better, I get a call this afternoon that they want me to come in some time soon to do my fingerprints so they can keep going w/my security clearance. So I call back & get voicemail & when she calls me back, it turns out she meant to call someone else.

To her credit, she is very nice & was very apologetic about the call. She says that if a job opens up that would be good for me, they'll call me. The hiring guy really liked me & thinks I'll be an asset to the company (can't remember the exact words, as I was in complete WTF mode, but that's the gist of it.).

So they like me, they really really...whatever. I'm happy & sad all at the same time.

Oh & the secretary job doesn't require clearance, so I wouldn't have a problem there.

Peace & Love

Happy Anniversary

2010-01-14T15:58:00.001-08:00

Yup, it was 9 years ago today, that my hubby was (stupid) wonderful enough to show up to say "I do". Sure there were plenty of "What?"s cuz he couldn't hear the minister, so he may not have known exactly what he got himself into, but that worked out to my benefit. You slip the minister $20 to add extra vows in there & you have a slave for life!

Good deal for me, not so good for him. *wink wink*

To my husband on our anniversary (not like I'm going to show him this...):
You are a giant pain in my ass. You snore. You cuss like a sailor. You're dirty. You smoke too much. You spoil me. You are a wonderful hubby (when you're not a pain in the ass) & a magnificent father. I couldn't pick a better partner for me if I tried. If I had to choose whether or not I wanted to, I would so marry you again.

Don't tell him I said so...wouldn't want him to get a big head.

Peace & love.

Mamavation Monday

2010-01-11T09:23:00.000-08:00

Most of you who have been reading about me for that past year pretty much know me. This will be a review for you...Who knows, you may learn something new about me!

My name is Kim. I'm 31 yrs old. I've been married for almost 9 years (shit, may anniversary is on Thurs!!!). I have a 6 year old daughter. And, as you can probably tell, I'm easily distracted.

I was chubby when I was younger, but as I got to be a teen I thinned out. When I was in elementary school, I was always self conscious about my weight. I weight 108 lbs when I was in the 5th grade. (Weirdly enough, I weighed less than that when I was 18.)

When I was18-19, I thought I looked as good(ish) that I could. I weighed 105 & was good to go. Sure I always had a little pooch that no amount of sit ups could fix, but whatever. Was I happy w/my looks...NO!

When I was 19, I decided to go on birth control. I was too lazy for the pill, so I went for the shot that you gt every 3 mos (I have no probs w/needles, for those of you thinking the pill is so much easier. Look at the blog name!). Your body can react like it's pregnant when you do this form of birth control. I was tired all the time. I was nauseous. I put on 50 lbs. Scary shit for the girl always worried about how much she weighed!

I was able to take most of that (ok, 1/2) off by the time I met my hubby through diet, exercise, & pills. I've probably tried a good portion of the diet pills out there. I hate feeling like my heart is going to beat out of my chest, but if it means that I don't have to work harder, it's worth it, right?

When you're with someone for a decade, you tend to get comfortable & a lot of people let themselves go. This is what I have done. I can blame it on my daughter, but that's taking the easy way out. I can blame it on my thyroid disease, too, & while I know that that's part of it, I know there's more. Plain & simple-I let myself go. I gave in to the laziness that has always been a part of me.

What I am trying to do is get myself back out of my lazy habit. I want to be ABLE to be active. My daughter doesn't need to grow up remembering me on the couch (which are most of her memories so far).

My goals for this week are small. I put them on my music post, but I'll put them here too.

Get moving in someway, shape or form.
Drink my 64 oz of water
NO SODA!!!!

I could make a ton more goals for myself, but Leah says baby steps.

Peace & Love

Shake Your Booty Music Monday

2010-01-10T12:29:00.001-08:00

Ok, Kia from Bodhi Bear basically challenged me to do a Music Monday that will get you going while working out.

As you all know, I'm trying to be the next Mamavation Mom. This means my tushy better get moving. Ok, while I'm on the computer, I'm obviously sitting on my ass, but trust me when I say I'm moving while listening through my list & writing this up.

Part of my problem is I am always on the computer & have every reason in the world not to get up...I can do pretty much everything while at my computer! I hope this gets me going! (I think I can. I think I can. I think I can...)

I hope this helps get you moving & gets you through your Monday!

Goals for today:

drink at least 64 oz of water
get moving in one way or another for at least an hr
NO SODA!!!!

Peace & Love

They Grow Up So Fast...

2010-01-08T23:08:00.000-08:00

What do you tell your kids when they ask you questions that you're not ready for them to know the answers to? I for one, answer M truthfully & to the best of my (not so) vast knowledge.

I drove M down the hill today to get her TB test looked at (everything was A-ok) & on the way she asked me if gay people were real. "Uh, yeah. Do you know what gay is?" "When a man marries a man & a woman marries a woman." Ok, close enough for me, she's got the jist of it.

I told her that they were different (she's used to mommy & daddy), but we do not treat them badly because of that, right? "Right." We like auntie, right? "Right." We think auntie is cool? She's silly, right? "Yes." We do not treat anyone badly because they are different from us, right? "Right."

"How do gays have babies?" WTF? When did it turn out to be one of these days? She hasn't even asked where babies come from! So I did my best to go over adoption, insemination, surrogates. She just kept getting hung up on men making the women carry the babies for them & that that was better. I kept trying to explain adoption & the babies that need love. We weren't agreeing on this part cuz we "weren't getting it". Yes, she told me that I wasn't getting what she was trying to say. (I wish I had videoed this part.)

I asked her where this came from. "American Dad." Ah yes. A reminder that I'm up for the #1 Mom award.

We then moved on to the women, as she just decided men couldn't have babies & the women had to carry them. "So if 2 women kiss, are there 2 babies?" Oh jeebus... No, monkey, there needs to be a sperm & an egg. If there's not both, there's no baby. I skimmed over artificial insemination/other options. "What's a sperm." It's comes from the man & is what's needed to fertilize the egg. "Oh, ok."-thank goodness, we're done- "What's fertilize?" Well shit, fuck, shit! Why can't this convo end??? The sad thing is I blanked! I know what it is basically, but I couldn't explain it to her!

Here is our convo where she tried to explain it to me(we were in the car, you probably need headphones):

Side note: We watched 4 Christmases, which she really enjoyed. Why is it that I am more terrified of her finding out there is no Santa than explaining this stuff to her?

Peace & Love

*Anyone who has a problem w/how I explained...whatever. I did the best I could in telling her & the best I could in recapping it for y'all. Thanks!*

Mamavation

2010-01-08T15:35:00.000-08:00

Ok, I told y'all my goals for 2010 & I'm trying to get help with one of those goals. Yep, you guessed it! I'm trying to get help to get my fat ass in shape! I will need all of you to support me, though!

I had so hoped to join in the competition for Mamavation & procrastination, technical difficulties, & self-doubt almost won out & I almost didn't.

I can't do this by myself, but I need to do something for myself. I don't mean the laziness or playing on the computer that I do in my spare (all of the) time. I need to actually do something for my body. I need to do it for my family. I need to be around for my kid. My hubby needs me to harass him.

I actually kinda wanna stick around, myself. I do stuff that I love...it may not be much to some, but I truly enjoy talking to everyone every day! I like watching movies & going through music & reading books. I just need to work for them. It's like doing chores...if you want your moola, then you will clean your fucking room, right? Nothing is for free.

Remember the help I asked for? For starters, here is what I need you to do. Get on Twitter & write (or cheat & just copy) this: Hey @bookieboo! I want @mentallyinked to be the next #Mamavation Mom. She has my support!

Mamavation is set up to help women lose weight & get healthy by supporting each other. There are tips & recipes, but mainly there is a wonderful support system.

If I win & get to be included in this campaign, I will we posting weekly on my progress & be submitting a food & exercise journal. Even if I don't make it, I think I may do this.

If anyone on Twitter sees the hashtag #Mamavation, or if you see Mamavation anywhere, please show the ladies your support!

I did also join the Pound for Pound Challenge (Thank you, Maria! She doesn't read, but someone pass it on, will ya?). This not only pushes me to do well, it's for a great cause!

I had so much fun filming this video, which is weird because it was the part I dreaded, that I may post all the pieces that got snipped out.

Peace & Love

Smooth Away

2010-01-06T05:00:00.000-08:00

Ok, my mother in-law likes to get the As Seen On TV things for stocking stuffers. Sometimes I use them, sometimes I don't.

The Smooth Away was one of the items in my stocking this last year (is she trying to tell me something? Nah, all the "girls" got them) & this morning I decided to try it, cuz I wasn't running enough behind.

First, let me say that this weird item actually works. Second, let me say that I feel like I have a rug-burn! I'm not a hairy person, but the fun in getting older is getting funky black hairs! I have blonde hair on my arms (weird, I know, I'm not blonde!) & on my face, but then there are the 3 weird black hairs!

Yes, I get lasered (pre-payed, I'll be paying for a few more months on the credit card. I regret the paying thing, but not the laser cuz it's just awesome.), but I have been lazy & haven't gone in the last couple months.

Anyway, I tried the Smooth Away on my chin & upper lip, (sexy, I know!) & my chin still friggin burns about 13 hours later. No, I'm not exaggerating! Luckily, my upper lip is just fine! Either I did something wrong, which I might have since I hate instructions, or there is something wrong w/it!
Did I push to hard in my effort to remove the 3 black hairs? It's like there should be a sign on it saying: To remove hair, just remove the top 3 layers of skin. Don't worry, the burning is normal!

Does this mean I won't try it on my legs? What, do you think I'm stupid? Of course I'm going to do it!

Peace & Love, people!

Meet My Family

2010-01-05T16:45:00.000-08:00

I know y'all have an idea what my family is like, but this gives you an actual peek into my household.

Meet the Cogleys, my loves, at their finest.

Peace & Love

A Shaving Accident

2010-01-04T12:00:00.000-08:00

It's a-friggin-mazing that hubby still likes me!

Here's what his face has looked like for...well, what seems like forever!
After a slip of the razor, he could have left it like this...stubborn.
Meet the new Eric. I've never seen his upper lip before 2 days ago (We've been together almost 10 years). I smile when I look at him. He gets self-conscious. I get a full-on case of the giggles. I'm a good wife, I know.
Yeah, I am amazed that he still likes me.

Peace & Love

I Do Love My Music Mondays

2010-01-03T16:15:00.000-08:00

I love how music can soothe your soul...even if you didn't realize that you needed it. I so love how music can be like a great movie that you feel. You feel the upbeat action, humor. You feel the heartbreak. You feel the calm, resolve. It's like a perfect ending. It brings such peace & contentment. (Is is me, or is Pink able to do all of this on her own??)

I picked only women for this week's Music Monday. I don't have a reason really, I just felt like it
Yes, I had to put in a song called Song for Eric for 2 reasons. (If you don't know why, you need to visit me more often, but I'm feeling nice enough to explain.) 1. Hubby's name is Eric. 2. My love for Tori! (duh!)

I hope you enjoy it. I hope it helps break you into your Monday, so it's not quite so harsh!

When you are done listening to here, I suggest (nice word for command!) you check out The Greer 5's Music Monday! Brittany always has some great selections!

Peace & Love

Bux-em in Oh Ten

2010-01-02T12:45:00.000-08:00

Damn, that's not quite right. Oh well, it fits me just fine.

So how are y'all? I hope you had a wonderful & safe New Year's Eve & Day! Me? I have a friggin cold. Don't make me laugh, so I don't start hacking! I'm trying so hard not to laugh, but I am fortunate to have so many friggin amusing people in my life. I love y'all & you're killin me! My jaw hurts from smiling & my chest hurts from laughing.

Oh what a horrid life I have, right? For my first post of 2010, I wish my horrible life on you!

May you all have horrible friends & family that make your jaw & chest hurt from happiness!

Damn, I'm getting sappy in my old age! I feel like maybe I should give y'all the finger or something to make up for it. Maybe next time!

I can't think of a good song at the moment, so I'm gonna do shameless plugs for people, that I'd love you to support. Great, great, great causes! You know I don't plug things unless I truly believe in them.

Boobs for Anissa Calendars: Click here to see & then ORDER one (or ten), please! (I've never met her, but her story brings me to tears w/every update I read. You wanna read a wonderfully true story of hope & love, check out Anissa's family's story.)

My friend Maria's son got in to the exchange program to go to school in JAPAN!!! (How awesome is that???) Please help her with tuition, by donating here. Every little bit helps! Even if it's a teensy weensy amount, she'll appreciate it!

I found one! I'm obsessed w/this song today!

Peace & Love

My Trip to Marshalls

2009-12-31T11:21:00.000-08:00

I finally made it to Marshalls yesterday!!! The amazingly wonderful Victoria from Rocket XL had given me gift cards for TJ Maxx & Marshalls (is this starting to sound familiar?), so a-shopping I a-went.

I've been putting it off because I prefer my shopping online. I'm sure the fact that the closest Marshalls is about 30 miles away had nothing to do with it (Sarcasm).

M had an appointment with the doctor yesterday & wouldn't you know, there happens to be a Marshalls about 2 minutes away! What a wonderful coinkidink! Just kidding, I knew. My bff & I planned on meeting up & doing a little shopping before M's appointment, & luckily, she had to be in the area too. We spent a fun-filled hour looking around w/the kiddies in tow.

We found lots of great things (in the yummy section) that we didn't buy. She got a couple good things for cheap!

Here is what I got for $28 & change:Not too shabby, right? And practically unheard of in this day & age!

Peace & Love

Goals for the New Year

2009-12-29T11:38:00.000-08:00

Notice I didn't say resolution? I don't believe in New Year's resolutions. I think they're crap, which I know I've said before. People take them seriously for about a minute & then they're forgotten or they're put off for so long until the person feels so guilty that they are forced to give it a shot; this happens in about June or July.

Here are my GOALS for 2010:

Lose weight-Sounds like everyone's resolutions, but for my health & my family & my sanity (I may f'ing beat that fat chick in the mirror one day!) it needs to be done.
Get a J O B-I need one to help support us, unless someone wants to pay me for chatting w/y'all...Anyone? Anyone? Shit. It was worth a try.

There are little ones like be nicer, be more active (blah blah blah), but those will most likely come w/attaining my major goals.

I don't want to hear your resolutions. I wanna hear your GOALS. What do you seriously plan on doing in the new year? How do you plan on starting out a new decade. If you say on your couch, pickin your nose, I will throw things at you. Besides, that position has been filled...by moi!

Cuz there's 30 years in a decade, right? Just kidding, but the song seems appropriate anyway.

Peace & Love

My Last Music Monday of 2009

2009-12-27T16:52:00.000-08:00

Good morning & happy Monday to everyone! I hope y'all had a wonderful Xmas or three day weekend for you non-Xmasers. I did, but I will go over mine in a separate post...you know, to make it look like I'm doing stuff.

I've got here, my last Music Monday for the year, for the decade! I hope you like it. For those of you without the kiddos around, turn it up! For those of you who have them right next to you or you're unlucky (or lucky) enough to be working:HEADPHONES! As usual, most of it's fine for wherever you are or whomever might be listening, but there's always one or two...

Have a great day!

Peace & Love

Happy Holidays!

2009-12-23T10:31:00.001-08:00

Ok, I can't leave everything as such a downer with Xmas so close! With so much going so shitty, so fast, here's what I'm thankful for:

My family-This includes extended, inlaws, soon to be inlaws, etc. Y'all are a pain in my ass, but I wouldn't trade you in for anything (except for maybe one mealyon dollars. Crap, holidays. Ok, not even for one mealyon dollars.)
My friends-This includes my IRL & online friends. I'm not sure where my sanity stands, but y'all help me keep at least a tiny bit. You support me when everything goes down the toilet. You make me laugh. You make me feel loved.
My hubby-Yup, he should've been included w/the fam, but he's more special than that. He makes me crazy. He makes me want to beat him. He's got a foul mouth & a fouler temper. He's also willing to support me in practically anything. We may not always get along & he may call me evil, but I love him to pieces.
My Kiddo-Yup, she's special too. She makes me crazy. She makes me want to beat her. She's got a foul mouth & a fouler temper...Just kidding, her mouth isn't too bad yet. She is smart & beautiful & wise beyond her years. She sometimes scares me. My little love may be demonic at times, but I am so thankful to have her in my life.
I'm thankful to have a roof over my head-It's friggin cold out! Ok, so it's cold in here too, but it's even colder outside! So many people don't have this luxury, yes luxury, that we take for granted. I will do whatever it takes to keep it. (Tis the season, so I guess I won't bring up hooking again until after the new year.)
My pottyroom-I can't stand public potties. I may not be phobic, but I hate them!

There's more, but you get my point. While I have reasons to be in a bad mood this holiday season, I also have reasons not to.

Happy Holidays, everyone! Since I'm lazy, I have no idea if I'm going to write again this week, so for all of you Xmasers: Merry Christmas! May you have a great one. May you keep your sanity. May you be with the ones you love.

Peace & Love

Too Good To Be True

2009-12-21T16:18:00.000-08:00

If something seems too good to be true, it usually is. I thought this would be the perfect job for me, the perfect place, the perfect hours, the perfect chance to learn something new...of course, it wasn't to be for me.

I got all excited, which I try to never do, & ended up heartbroken, embarrassed & ashamed.

Heartbroken that I lost this chance to help my family get back on it's feet. Heartbroken that I lost the chance to get into a good company & learn something new, so I won't always be a secretary. Heartbroken that I've lost hope that I could be something bigger & have the chance to grow.

Embarrassed because now everyone knows how unworthy I am. Yes, I know I posted about it, but wouldn't you all start to wonder why I never talked about this great job I had mentioned getting. I'm not a liar & it's easier to get it out of the way.

Ashamed because I am unworthy somehow. I have never truly done a bad thing in my life, but there is something there that kept me from getting the clearance that I needed. It makes me feel like I will forever be just not good enough. Everyone will hear & either pity me or gloat.

For reasons like this, I am scared shitless of everything good in my life because it is so easily taken away.

I'm sorry I'm such a downer today. I'm going to blame it on PMS, just like I do every time I'm in a bad mood. All I need is some Midol & a couple of drinks & I should be right as rain.

Now I'm gonna go cry over something stupid like having to return my new, beloved Vado HD.

Peace & Love (& know that I appreciate you all for listening to me whine.)

A Vicious Circle

2009-12-21T13:27:00.000-08:00

I just found out today that I no longer have that wonderful job that I was so excited to get & so desperately needed. Why? Because of security clearance that I needed to have. What could be in my past that is so terrible that might keep me from getting this clearance, you may ask? Am i a terrorist? No! Am I a thief? NO! Am I a threat to any kind of security? NO!!!

The only thing I can guess is that it's my credit, my financial situation (one of the generic reasons on what it could have been). It's a vicious circle, one that I may not be able to get out of. This year has been hell on my finances & my credit rating. I would be able to dig myself out of this hole if I had a job, but I can't get a job (at least this one) because of this fucking hole!

Yes, I plan on spending the rest of the day wallowing in my misery & watching Pirates. Johnny is never a disappointment & never hurts me. It may be better for me to be away from people & soak in my movies anyway.

So, what minimal holiday cheer I may have had has now gone down the toilet.

No music...I just don't feel like it.

Peace & Love

A Holiday Music Monday

2009-12-20T10:48:00.000-08:00

Welcome to the Christmas Countdown...

Here are my holiday music picks on this, the week of "get me that!". I know I'm late for Hanukkah, terrible non-practicing Jew that I am, but made sure there were at least a couple Hanukkah songs included (Adam Sandler counts!)

I couldn't do quite as long a list as usual cuz I don't love holiday music, not nearly as much as I love other music, & I'm not feeling the holiday cheer.

I'm not down. per se, just not feeling the happy, bubbly, & oft religious music.

Don't get me wrong, I do love some of them, not necessarily for their words, but for their feel. Carol of the Bells, Little Drummer Boy, God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen; the melodies & harmonies...I just close my eyes & listen.

I hope y'all are having a happy holiday season. Remember the whole "Peace on earth & Goodwill towards men (& women)". In my opinion, that means: Even if you're an asshole, knock it off...at least until after the new year. Then you can make a resolution to not be an asshole, & that gives everyone an extra week without your shit. Thank you.

After you're done listening here, go check out Brittany's, from The Greer 5, choices! (Her's are a little more traditional.)

Peace & Love

A Parent's Worst Nightmare

2009-12-17T15:57:00.000-08:00

Earlier this week, a tragedy happened to a fellow blogger, mom. Every (non-psycho) parent's worst nightmare. I have never met Shellie, though I do follow her on Twitter, but my heart goes out to her & her family for the loss of her 2 yr old son.

I have been fortunate enough to have never felt the pain that they must be feeling & I get teary just writing about it, & the thought of losing my one & only (pain-in-the-ass, beautiful, creative, smart, wonderfully weird) daughter.

There have fights & people attacking online about what happened that I have been lucky enough to catch only the slightest breath of, that I think are ridiculous. A mother has lost her baby, I don't care what you think is wrong with the story, that is the bottom line. If you don't have anything nice to say, just shut the fuck up.

I've never been a purveyor of pretty words, I'm more seaman than lady, & that is my bottom line right now: If you can't be supportive, if you can't be nice, just fuck off.

In case anyone should pass this along to her:
Shellie, you don't know us, but my husband & I are both so very sorry for your loss. A piece of my heart has broken for you & your family. I'm not good w/words, so *hugs* to you all.

Peace & Love

My TJ Maxx Experience

2009-12-14T12:35:00.000-08:00

Victoria from Rocket XL was sweet enough to send me gift cards for TJ Maxx & Marshalls. I am not a shopper, not really. I'm not a very good "girl", I know.

Well, today I had time (for reasons I will explain later), so I headed over to TJ Maxx. It happened to be on my way home, so it worked out perfectly!

I looked around a little, since I've only been in TJ Maxx maybe once before. They have some of the cutest things! I got out of the store spending only $45.63 (ok, $2o.63 out of pocket~Thank you again Victoria!!!)

Here's what I got:

A child-size snuggie-like blanket for M (don't tell my anti-Snuggie friends!). A cute little bunny blanket for Gena's little man, Myles (Surprises are not my thing).

Teddy w/a blanket for my bff's little Sophia & a teddy for Toys For Tots

Ipod speakers for Christy (Told you that I'm terrible with surprises)

Like I said, I'm not a shopper, but I think I did pretty well for myself!

In case you haven't already, please don't forget to check out Carol-oke! I should be getting my Vado soon, so I may enter myself (or trick M into it)!

Next time I go shopping, I'm going to check out Marshalls!

Peace & Love

A Back To Work Music Monday!

2009-12-14T05:00:00.000-08:00

Ok, none of these have anything to do w/going back to work, but that is what I am doing today! For some of my Twitter friends, you'll notice I got some of these from PS I Love You. I just love the sound of them. Again, I went lazy & went perusing other people's playlists & found songs I liked. I deleted some cuz I ended up with over 50 songs!

Next week, I think I'm going to do a Christmas list of songs that don't make me want to vomit.

If I'm talking about PS I Love You, then I gotta have MY Gerard in here!

Have a wonderful Monday, everyone!
Peace & Love

Happy Birfday to My Baby!!!!

2009-12-12T10:31:00.000-08:00

On December 12th, 2003 Marissa Joleen came into this world, a month early, to parents who were scared shitless.

M was due on Jan 14th, Eric's & my anniversary, but as I had preeclampsia, & she was tiny for how far along I was, she was brought into this world a month early. They decided not to induce me & we are lucky for that. They tell me that if I had given birth to her naturally, she may not have survived. My little monkey had bounced around inside of me & tied her chord in a knot.

M was 4 lbs, 1 oz, & tiny like a little doll. She was wrinkly (she hadn't grown into her skin yet).

She quickly caught up to where she should be!

My beautiful, smart, pain-in-the-ass daughter.

Happy Birfday to my baby.

Peace & Love

Your Opinion is Needed!

2009-12-09T17:35:00.000-08:00

Eric wanted opinions, but I don't think I can fit it into 140 characters for Twitter. Here goes & keep in mind, I am paraphrasing.

He got money today from work for wire taken in. The wire was given to him by his stuporvisor. He told me that he wanted to get a set of pipes for the midlifecrisismobile~fairly inexpensive (they slip on). We have Xmas & M's birfday taken care of. He said that that is what he wanted, I have some money to pay bills. Ok, no problem.

I didn't realize that he was going to order the pipes TODAY. He called his bro all excited that he had the money & his bro said to come over & that they could order it & Bro would put it on his card & Eric would give him the cash for it & have it delivered there so he can help E install. Done & Done.

My sis inlaw, freaked the hell out about this. Calling him deceitful & a thief. Saying that he was hiding this from me. He explained to her where he got the money, though it wasn't her business & said that I knew & that she could call me.

There are many problems with this story in my book & I got upset with him. 1. Why does he need to put it on Bro's card? He could have waited a couple of days & put it on ours! 2. I could have ordered it for him since he's barely computer literate. 3. Why does his fam need to know any of our business? I let you all know we're broke, but I don't give you dollars & cents. Our finances one way or another aren't anyone's business. 4. They live about 7 mi away, did it really need to be delivered there? If Bro wants to help install for male-bonding, he can come over here as well.

I have more problems, but this is taking too long. What do you think? How would you have reacted. Did I have reason to get mad? I need guys & girls info, pls!

Thank you!!!

Peace & Love

*I had pulled this down last night because I was doing the same thing he was, on a bigger level.*

My Mean Mommy by Marissa Cogley

2009-12-09T10:50:00.000-08:00

I know this is hard to read, but M wrote this in crayon. I translated for those of you who may have problems reading Five Year Old. I have become quite adept at translating & will soon need to learn how to read Six Year Old. (You can click on her writing to enlarge.)

Here is her tale about how mean I am. I find it humorous enough on it's own, so I will not make comments to explain or defend myself. (Also, no music today. Just enjoy the story.)

I do not like the way you treat me because I don't like the way you treat me because I do like the...

You make me tell you what I want to have for breakfast & you make me pick up the toys by myself.

And the other thing I do not like the most the way you yell at me & you yell at me to do stuff just for you & I do not like it.

And I do not like the way you hit me because you smack on purpose & send me to my room.

And I do not like the way you me because and you not not make me eat stuff that I do not want to eat.

And she does not let me look at her book.

Enjoy your kids. Especially the smart(ass) ones. They'll be the ones paying for your retirement!

Peace & Love

Introducing Carol-oke!

2009-12-08T13:00:00.000-08:00

T.J. Maxx & Marshalls are doing a great thing while inviting everyone to have some fun & giving them the chance to win awesome prizes! Hello, the chance $100 gift cards or a $5000 shopping spree? Not too shabby!

Now what great thing are they doing? Well, for every uploaded video from one of their original songs, they will make a $1 donation to Toys For Tots, a wonderful & worthy cause!

I'm tempted to do this myself, even though I can't sing & don't want my face shown anywhere. Unfortunately, I'm still waiting for my Xmas wish to come true!

For all of you brave people, & I know y'all are brave, I ask you to have fun! Make an awesome video! Send it in & then cut me in when you win! Just kidding...maybe.

I dare you all. Do it for the children! (Ha, I'm nothing if not a wonderful, guilt-giving mother!) If that doesn't convince you, do it for the chance to win FREE shopping!

Now, my friends, go make your video! Don't forget to check out the rules, though, first! Click HERE to visit the T.J. Maxx & Marshalls Carol-oke page.

Peace, Love & Good luck to you all!

My Dream of a Video Camera

2009-12-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

You know the song/saying "All I want for Xmas is my 2 front teeth"? All I want is a video camera. Not an expensive one, a Flip or a Vado would suit my needs nicely!

I just went on vacation w/my family to beautiful Arizona & would have loved to video some of it for y'all! I tried on my camera & it just sucked up too much of the memory card.

I have many crazy & wonderful people who want me to vlog (they wanna here me rant & rave in person, I guess!).

I'd love for y'all to actually see my beautimous pain in the ass-I mean daughter! I meant daughter!- And the psycho activities of my dog. And we can't miss the humor of the sleeping hubby! (Ok, he may not want me to get a video camera...)

What is it that y'all want for Xmas & why?

Ok, this is from over a year ago & technology changes quite a lot in that amount of time, but this guy is funny & I love his review!

Peace & Love

What's To Come

2009-12-08T10:07:00.000-08:00

I have less than one week lest of non-worker status. Yup, I'm going back to work on Monday after being off for over a year. I'm so nervous, but excited as hell, as well!

I've been frustrated here, so I don't know what is going to happen with this blog. I've been mostly whine-y here & I hate that! I want people to love what I'm saying & doing, but I know I can't please everyone.

I'm going to try to branch out, so it won't only be me bitching about something or another. I'm going to try to do some reviews (if anyone wants me to). Y'all know that you'll get honesty from me or this blog would be me blowing smoke & rainbows up your ass.

I'd be a beautiful princess, the perfect wife & mother...

Shrek 2 - Fairy Godmother Song | Movies & TV | SPIKE.com

Peace & Love

Listener's Choice Music Monday

2009-12-07T05:00:00.000-08:00

For those of you who participated, I thank you. For those of you who didn't~Plllllllllttttttttttt (raspberry sound) on you! You will have another chance, when I get lazy again. (Play with me!)

I hope y'all enjoy this because I did not have anything to do w/any of these picks. These are from those of you who chose to play with me (& those of you that I badgered in to playing w/me) & I love the differences in them.

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday!

Because I didn't want to leave anyone's requests out & I found I actually like this lady!

Peace & Love

Just Who Do They Think I Am?

2009-12-04T06:25:00.000-08:00

According to my email, I'm a desperate man w/a little dick, with rich friends wanting to give me free money! Oh, did I say I was desperate? Scuse me, Russian chicks want to marry me!

I love how these people send these to everyone! Dating sites (which a majority think I'm a man), mail order hos (in which also think I'm a man), South African princes & rich doctors or something in England (who don't care what I am, as long as I give them my banking info).

I know spam is spam, but I think if they looked into who they were sending crap to, they might actually get some response (from others besides stupid people~yes, I can say this because I too am sometimes stupid).

There was no point to this, I just get all that crap on a daily. PSA for the day: If you're going to spam me, please send me email on how to get bigger boobs, tell me hot GUYS want me (sorry, I don't swing towards the ladies), or that you're going to send me CASH & that you DON'T need my bank info!

One more PSA for the day, since I'm feeling generous: If you call me fat in the subject line, there is no friggin way in hell that I'm even considering opening it! I'm considering punching the sender in the face instead. You can just suck it!

This has nothing to do w/anything, but I was so jazzed to hear it yesterday!

Peace & Love

Oh, What You Must Put Up With!

2009-12-02T15:17:00.000-08:00

Friends:

Are there for you when you need them
Play along w/you when you're saying the most ridiculous things
Call you out for being an asshole, but love you anyway
Put up w/your bullshit & drama
Get the completely random things that come out of your mouth (sort of)
Bring out the best & worst in you (hell, you have to be able to act like a child w/someone!)
Will tell you you're cute, even when you look like death
Like you for who you are (or why the hell would they still be there?)

For a weird change, I'm feeling warm & fuzzy. Don't hold it against me, it shouldn't last!

Thank you to those of you who put up w/my crap!

Peace & Love

Post-Holiday Music Monday

2009-11-30T05:00:00.000-08:00

I'm in a cranky, bloated, fat, bitchy mood, so I doubt this is the right time to do this, but in the mood I'm in, it won't get done if I don't do it now. I just don't care right now.

I'm happy my most favoritest eating holiday is done & my birfday celebrating over with. I've eaten practically whatever I want & now feel like I could fill 2 seats (who knows, I just might).

This playlist took me less time because I do not feel like organizing them into something that flows nicely. I usually put in so much work on them for the 5 of you who actually listen to them, but I don't have it in me today. Don't get me wrong, I appreciate each of you, I'm just frustrated & cranky. You may get that feel when you listen. Most of these were added 2 weeks ago, can you tell which I added today? I'll give you a gold star if you get them all right.

I hope my crankiness didn't add to yours (Monday after a holiday? I'm sure you're feeling some.)

Happy Monday.

Peace & Love

Listener's Choice Update

2009-11-29T17:16:00.000-08:00

I'm still collecting songs for the Listener's Choice for Next Monday. As I have recently been reminded, I will not be in town this next weekend, so I need any requests in to my no later than 5 pm PST, on Thursday. I can't guarantee the hotel we'll be at will have free internet, so I want to make sure I get this done before I leave.

To ensure I can add them, you may want to check playlist.com to make sure they have them!

Thank you!!!

Peace & Love

More Food & Love

2009-11-25T14:57:00.001-08:00

So far I'm having the bestest food birfday ever! So far, my birthday has lasted 5 days, & I've been taken out (or just fed) 5 times. And believe you me, I'm am enjoying it immensely! Unfortunately, my pants are not. Fat & happy? Yeah, not so much... I am loving the food though!! And the best food of it all comes tomorrow! I'm soo excited (for the food)!

That's not entirely true! While I love the food, I love my family too. I am grateful to them for just being them. I just hope they bring some goodies. I heard that my cousin's wife is making different batches of cookies & I'm hoping that means that we're getting some good stuff!

Wow, is this a total fat-girl post or what?! All about the food!

I truly am thankful for my friends & family (for helping in making me the fat-ass I am today) for always being there when they are needed & loving me unconditionally.

My friends (in my head) include you loonies who come here to read whatever nonsense I have spouted on any given day. Y'all are wonderful! They also include my Twitter & Momdot friends, whom I adore. (I am in a pseudo-fight right now, just to give Gena someone to argue with, & enjoying the hell out of myself!) My pod-family almost always make me feel safe & loved (Mommy, daddy, please don't fight! Yes, we're a giant dysfunctional family). My in real life friends, ahhh...do you put up w/a lot! Love you bunches.

Enough mushy cheese. What are you thankful for? (Besides me, I mean...hehehehe)

Everyone have a wonderful Turkey Day! Try not to eat too much!

Ha! Thought I was gonna do a Turkey Day song again, didn't you? (Now I wanna watch Golden Girls!)

Peace & Love

Meet the Blogger Brittany

2009-11-23T05:00:00.000-08:00

Brittany is so awesome & does a "Meet the Bloggers" for everyone else, so I thought that I'd do one for her. Granted, she made it easy for me & already had the questions ready to go, but it's fun to see how the questioner becomes the questionee (is that a word?). I have to give her a lot of credit for the restraint she shows in not commenting on or questioning everyone's answers. I do not have that restraint! I'm so nosy & talky that I have to put my 2 cents in!

Most of you know & love her, but for those of you who don't, I would love to introduce her to you. She is the fab person who made my site so lovely. She is a wonderful friend (when she is not torturing me). She is just a great person in general.

Meet Brittany Greer from the Greer 5.

Question 1:
Why in the world do you blog ? And what is your favorite thing about
it?
I started blogging like everyone else...to keep my family updated. But
thanks to a couple special ladies, I expanded on the blogging aspect. My
favorite thing about blogging is all the great friends I've met. Like
Kimlish - my kindred spirit!
Yes, I am Kimlish.

Question 2:
What is your favorite color , food and number?
Favorite Color - White
Food - Anything that is spicy but I love southern cooking!
Number - 2
I wonder, why white?

Question 3:
What kind of music do you listen to?
What don't I listen to? I'm an equal opportunity listener!
I've seen her playlist & yes she is!

Question 4:
Do you have a personal statement or motto that you live by?
There are actually several that I live by, but most recently my motto is
"In Omnia Paratus" meaning Prepared for all things.
I need to try this motto out!

Question 5:
If you could live anywhere - where would it be?
In the South of course. In a house like Forest Gump lived in. I'm talking
spiked lemonades on the front porch at noon, gossiping like southern woman
with my friends etc!
I hope I'd be one of those women. Hey, I'm from SOUTHern California!

Question 6:
If you could be from the past - which part of the past would you chose?
I loveeee history so it's always hard for me to chose. The days of the Old
West or when the greek philosophers were around. I would have loved to sit
around and talk to them all day!
You've got to love a diversified woman! Talk about 2 completely different times! I love it!

Question 7:
If you had a million dollars were told you had to live on a beautiful
island with a beautiful house with only one person in the world - who would
you pick?
Kim said I had to pick her LOL! But seriously...I would take my husband but
then my kids would be parentless. So he's gotta stay. Then I wanted to take
Derek Jeter. But the Yankees need him. So I think today I'll chose Gerard
Butler. That would be HOTTTTTTTTTTTT!
She not only ditched me, but she took my man! She's lucky I love her!

Question 8:
Which networking site do you despise the most?
MySpace. It's lame and I'm not sure why it exists anymore - besides for
bands etc. Twitter and I have a love hate relationship for the most part.
Twitter mocks me daily.
Excuse me, I'm back on Myspace! It's quieter, for those days where you wanna be social, but not very!

Question 9:
Tell us one random thing you are thinking right now.
If I could make a pill that gives us energy and motivation I would be a
happy camper.
Wouldn't we all? I'd be one of your first customers, right? Friend discount?

Question 10:
Last but not least - what is your favorite feature on yourself?
My big booty. It's not too large but it's got great form. Comparable to
J-Lo. But my smile has always been complimented on!
Because it's lovely! (& the butt ain't bad, either)

To find & follow Brittany:
http://thegreerfive.com
http://www.facebook.com/BreeGreer
http://twitter.com/BrittanyGreer5

Peace & Love

Birfday Music Monday!

2009-11-22T18:55:00.000-08:00

Hello & Happy Monday everyone! Today's version of Music Monday is not for everyone, in fact, I'm pretty sure that most people will not enjoy it as much as me. To that, I will be rude & say, "Ha ha! Suck it! It's my birfday & I can do what I want to!"

Am I really that rude? Unfortunately, yes. It's my birfday & I'm a bitch cuz I want to...

Now, that's not nice! You shouldn't be mean to other people on your birfday! You want presents!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday!

Peace & Love

Why I Love Turkey Day

2009-11-21T08:39:00.000-08:00

I'm no history buff. I'm pretty self-centered & live in the now & what concerns me. This is partially explains my love for the wonderfully delicious Turkey Day. Why, you ask?

I was born November 23rd, 1978...TURKEY DAY!!! It may not be this year, but in 1978 it was, look it up people. (See, all about me?!)

I also love Turkey Day for the most wonderful food ever. I love turkey & stuffing & bread (screw veggies) & mashed potatoes & pumpkin pie. Sure you end up w/the worst food hangover ever, but it is soooo worth it! (Can you tell I'm a fat person living in a fat person's body? I love food!)

Family gets together, & while you love them all, you know some sort of drama will ensue. If everyone brings tasty treats, you are willing to forgive them. Non-tasty treats, then nope, you'll never forgive. Fine, maybe you'll forgive them, but you'll never forget the non-tasty treats they brought & will find a way to get even...

I hope everyone has a wonderful (drama-free) Thanksgiving.

Peace & Love!

*Cute turkey from photobucket.com

Support Your Local Artists!

2009-11-17T17:56:00.000-08:00

Help make the local artists feel loved. Come on, do you wanna see this man cry? (I probably make people sorry they ever befriended me!)

Jason McCormack, yes my favoritest tattoo guy, is also an artist! (Surprise, surprise, right?)

Yes, this should have been done earlier, but I'm a bad supporter & friend.

Saturday, November 21st from 7 pm-11 pm @

Arts Connections/Innovations

17129 Main Street Suite B
Hesperia, CA 92345 If you're in the area (or surrounding areas), please come on out & show your support!

(Love this movie!)

Peace & Love

I Got the Job!

2009-11-17T17:54:00.001-08:00

Everyone has been so wonderful in supporting me & I sooo very much appreciate it! As you can see from the title, yes, I did get the job! I just need to wait for some security stuff to go through & my tushy will be a-workin!

I am soo excited, y'all would not believe it! I mean, who wants to go to work? I do! I have been so stressed out that this actually made me want to cry because I was so relieved that I got it. I assure you, I acted manly & did not shed a tear, but I wanted to so badly! (I'm saving my tears for when I truly need them~who wants to watch PS...I Love You with me?)

I love everyone who crossed everything for me & luckily y'all can now walk without walking into the wall, pee without going on your shoes, & other stuff I'm sure your significant others have cursed me for. Your hands, legs, eyes & everything else are free!!! Ok ready? And one & stretch and 2 & stretch.

I will be an accounting clerk. Me? Quit laughing at me, you jerks! (Still love you.) Yes, I have the most wonderful opportunity to learn something new. I don't know if you can tell cuz I hide my feelings so well, but I am thrilled. I practically did the happy dance on the phone! Not a pretty sight, but none of you were there, so it doesn't matter (& pls don't try to picture that!).

Again, I just want to thank you all for your support & for listening to my bitching & moaning about being broke. I am still broke, but I'm going to be working my way out of that!

Peace & Love

**Froggy is from Animation Playhouse & I love it!

Listener's Choice

2009-11-16T14:49:00.000-08:00

I've decided to do a Listener's Choice playlist on Monday, December 7th, which means I need your songs!

Here's what I need (& I will keep bugging everyone until I get them) from y'all.

2 of your favorite songs. I don't care what they are, I will post them as long as playlist.com has them (so you might want to check & see). Just have them to me no later than Sat, Dec 5th at 5 pm PST.

I would love everyone's participation. Please send your songs to me @ kimberlycogley@yahoo.com . In the subject line, please write "I love Kim" or "Mentally Inked Song Choices", whichever you prefer.

Here is an example of the first one I received. (You gotta love my fam!)

Peace & Love

An Almost Anything Goes Music Monday

2009-11-15T14:59:00.000-08:00

Happy Monday all!

I think I finally have my playlist done (I have 4 playlists in progress, so I should be good for a couple weeks.), woo hoo! I put so much time & effort into these & I'm soo damn picky that it's almost a relief when I finish!

I was going to do show tunes for this week's Music Monday & then figured: Ya know my birfday is next week, so I'm going do the show tunes for my birfday, since I will probably enjoy them more than anyone else! Then I started going through other peoples playlists & hearing songs I've never heard before & ones that I haven't heard in years! I had so many songs going that I had to start another list and this list is still longer than usual!

It becomes hard to do these every week because I don't want to always put the same songs in a list~especially when I love soo many! I want people to start participating & letting me know some of the songs they like. I can do a Listeners' Choice playlist. Otherwise, y'all are stuck w/mine. Just to make you play with me, I may start putting crazy stuff in, & only crazy stuff! (Not really, I listen to my playlists over & over again.)

Peace & Love

The Un-social Social Networker

2009-11-14T08:35:00.000-08:00

Ok, unsocial, antisocial. Tomay-to, tomah-to.

It's weird, at least for me, that I can spill (some of) my guts & talk to y'all through here or Twitter or Facebook & yet, I can't talk to you in person or where I'm in a position to be seen.

I went to the LA Mom's Night Out (put on by Mom TV ) last night & mainly stayed to myself or with the few people I knew. Kadi came outside to get me because I was being paged by Nicole & Gena online. I was inside long enough to wave hi to the camera & then slink back to my safe place.

I have been like this my entire life. I am always nervous around new people & I am nearly terrified in group situations (doesn't matter if I know people or not). I don't like to be the focus of anything (which is amazing since this is all about me, right?). A month or so ago, the lovely, beautiful, & silly, Brittany Greer posted my "Meet the Bloggers". My motto? Don't Trip (also known as the theme of my wedding day).

Right now because I don't feel good about myself, it's even worse. I feel (& look) fat & ugly, & that makes me even more uncomfortable around people.

If you meet me, please don't take my standoffishness (real word?) as me being bitchy or conceited or thinking I'm better than everyone around me (yes, I've heard all these things from people~after they took the time to get to know me.), I'm just shy. I'm not saying I'm not a bitch, cuz I totally am, but just give me a chance.

Maybe I will get better. Maybe I won't. I don't know.

I will make you all share my love of Glee.

Peace & Love.

"Matchmaker, Matchmaker, Make Me a Match"

2009-11-13T17:00:00.000-08:00

We've all done this for a friend, " I know someone perfect for you!" (At least all of the women have. ) When you've been out of the game for the last decade, like I have, this is your chance to date vicariously through other people! (No, I am not unhappy in my marriage & neither do I ever actually want to enter the dating game again.)

I know this is a female thing. I know this. (The hubby will be surprised, & maybe a little pleased, that I do actually have more than one female bone in my body!)

I have the strongest desire to be a matchmaker right now, but I'm doing my best to stay out of it. I think I have found the most perfect couple. Granted, I barely know one of them, but from what I do know, I think it makes them perfect! One of them is fabulous & doesn't realize it & the other would compliment them perfectly(& is seemingly fab in their own right).

Is there anyone that any of you have matched up? Does it work?? Tell me your tales!

Call me Cupid...Kim Wannabe-Cupid. (Yes, it's hyphenated.)

If you have guessed who either of these people are, just keep it to yourself. I'm behaving & not naming names.

First (& Hopefully Last) Day of Freedom

2009-11-09T14:57:00.000-08:00

It's amazing how little I can get done in one day! I deserve it, though, right? I mean, I have to get up again at 5:30 in the morning (you think when someone doesn't work, they get to sleep in...awesome! Yeah...no.) I'm up at the butt-crack of dawn just to make sure we, M & I, get on the road by 6:30ish (hey, I'm not perfect), so the little one gets to school on time, while still having time to run around & get some excess energy out.

It's weird. You'd think I want to get everything done before I go back to work, when in fact, I'd rather to do the opposite! I want to do nothing with whatever time I have left to do nothing. I'm so bass ackwords that I can't get it right. My laziness is truly starting to show.

I am enjoying the day without having to be a mom (ok, after I got M to school). I should feel bad that Eric is working 6 days a week (ok, I feel bad, but I should feel worse) while I'm doing nothing. That's right, I'm not even doing the laundry that should be done. I am just so relieved to be kid-free! Don't get me wrong, I love her to pieces, but I've spent the last 2 weeks w/her because she was on break at school & I am so happy to not hear, "Mom, I'm hungry!" every 5 minutes. How much can 1 little girl eat? Does she have a hollow leg that I don't know about? And she had the gall to accuse me of trying to starve her! Sheesh!

Here's to freedom! (for the day because I have plans for the rest of the week.)

Peace (& Quiet, ahhhhhh) & Love

I Am A Music Pain

2009-11-08T15:12:00.000-08:00

This Music Monday might be different. If it seems like it's coming from different people, that's because it is. In my head, I know exactly what I'm lookin' for. If I can't put it into words, though, I can't search. Arrrrggghhhh!!!!!

Luckily there are people that kinda get me, that can help me pull the thoughts out of my head. Unfortunately, after dealing w/me for a bit, they gave up on me. Yes, I am picky when it comes to my Music Mondays. They had great songs, but not what I was looking for for this play list, so I took a couple songs from each & continued on my music journey. Some are from other play lists, but they fit perfectly into this one.

So over 5 hrs(& a headache) later, here is my music for the new week. I hope you enjoy it!

Now let's see if I can pull my ass up from this couch. I think I'm stuck!

Peace, Love & Happy Monday

Bikes, Buses, & Walkers, Oh My!

2009-11-07T08:00:00.000-08:00

When I was younger, it was cool to walk to ride our bikes. It meant that we were grown up enough to do these things on our own. The joy of walking from point A to Point B without supervision was an awesome thing. Riding our bikes was even more freeing (until I fell).

Then I was old enough to drive & that didn't happen so much anymore. Then driving was the bestest thing ever! We could go even further distances unsupervised (& we did!).

When did it happen that I actually started to pity the people who are seen still walking or biking to Point B. It's not only me, I'm sure (I hope). I look at the people without cars & it's like an L magically appears on their forehead.

What the hell is wrong with me? They're the ones getting exercise every day (while others do it on their treadmills & stationary bikes~don't they know they're getting nowhere?!), saving money on the million dollars per gallon gasoline (while we're loading up our very thirsty guzzlers). They can actually see the new buildings that have gone up around where I grew up as I whizz by in the car (barely missing them cuz they need to get the hell out of the street).

And the bus?! I've never used one for every day travel, so I'm extremely spoiled & snotty on that count! Poor shmoes getting where they need to be for cheap...& being chauffeured. Hmmm...Mike! We need a physical tour of bus-dom, please! (You'll love Mike's stories!)

Has it always been like this? Is it just our generation? Is it just me? (You bastards~not you Holly~yelling at the bicyclists better not just say it's me!)

Please give me your feedback.

Peace & Love

Tattoo Artistes Need Love Too!

2009-11-04T15:01:00.000-08:00

(Pronounced arteest, cuz I feel like it!)

Jason of Main Street Tattoos is my new most favoritest tattoo guy (Brandy, I said guy. You haven't worked on me, but you're my favoritest tattoo gal!)

If you're in the IE (Inland Empire, for you non-So Calers) or in the High Desert, & looking to get some ink, please visit Jason. He did my most beautimous butterfly & as you can see from the pic, he did my friend Christy's ankh. Hell, he even did a little tat for Kadi (same day I got my butterfly).

I'm not sure if this is good or bad, but he's my kind of people. Great sense of humor & he plays along. Yeah, not sure if Christy's seen the happy face we decided to put back there yet...

Main Street Tattoo 14519 Main St, Ste B, in Hesperia (760) 948-7100

Peace & Love

The Interview/Sell Yourself!

2009-11-04T09:11:00.002-08:00

Hey, baby (imagine me putting my tank top strap down my shoulder)...Sell yourself! Shit, if I don't want me, who else is going to?

Yes, I had my interview yesterday, for anyone interested. The very nice gentleman interviewing me was retired Navy, which means his poker face kicked ass! Do I know how it went? Um, not exactly. I'd say it was a solid OK.

Selling myself has never been one of my best traits. You have to be around me to decide truly if you like me or not (ok or read me & decide you love me because I'm friggin awesome! hehehe).

Reasons to like me (personal &/or work related):

I'm loyal-I stuck with a job for almost 10 years when I was unhappy for at least 7. I'd rather be hurt than see my friends hurt (even if they're at fault for whatever). If I love you, I'd do anything I could to protect you from being hurt.
I'm punctual-I despise being late. It's almost enough to give me a mini panic attack!
I'm hard working-Ok, not always. If I enjoy what I'm doing, I do great. I'll be the best damn worker you've got!
I'm a people person-Yes, I know I constantly say that I'm not, but for some reason, I seem to get along well with others (I'm not going to day that everyone loves me because...)
I'm not a liar-I tell the truth almost always. I hate even little fibs. (Yes I have told some, but it was mostly when I was younger.) I can't stand liars. Most of the time, you end up w/5 versions of the same story because they can't remember whatever the hell they've said.
I have a sense of humor-Ok, not everyone gets me, but I'm funny damn it!

Ok, I'm sure there's more (jeez, I hope so) good stuff about me, but I can't think of it right now. On to the bad!

I'm stubborn-I'm always right (ok, mainly w/the hubby. I can admit when I'm wrong.)
I'm shy-Surprise! A lot of people are surprised by this because, for the most part, I can fake confident well.
I'm lazy-Is anyone really shocked by this?
I am domestically challenged-Come look at my house. Wait, no!
I have a shitty memory-Genetics have struck again.
I'm maternally challenged-I'm not the best mom, but I'm not the worst either (I love my kid, so I guess that's what matters).

I could keep going, but I'm not. The point is to sell myself.

Peace & Love

Fake Friends Need Not Apply

2009-11-02T19:17:00.000-08:00

I'm almost 25 *cough cough* years old. I'm getting too old for my feelings to be hurt by someone not wanting to offend.

You didn't offend me. You fucking hurt me & pissed me off. You "love" me? I'd hate to see what you'd do to someone you didn't like!

Ok, at almost 31 (yeah, I knew no one was goin' for the 25), no one but my husband & kid should have that power over me, & now thanks to you, no one else will again. I remember now, why I went for so long without letting anyone close to me. Anyone who gets in my defenses now will be worth it, or they can just stay the fuck out.

Yes, I'm in the anger stage, but will soon be headed to indifference. Then this will mean nothing to me & you'll be a nothing but vague memory.

I have few friends, but they are all precious to me. If someone doesn't like me for who I am, well, they can piss off. I will not beg for their friendship & I will not change who I am. It's taken me this long to get me to where I like who I am, why would I change for someone who didn't appreciate it?

Peace & Love, my friends...
**My new favorite toy (the bird) was provided to me by Shan @ Last Shreds of Sanity. Thank you Shan!

A Music Monday Ride...Like Six Flags, but Different

2009-11-01T16:09:00.000-08:00

This Music Monday is gonna be a little different, a little weird, a little loud, a lotta me.

Most people may not like this playlist, but for the most part, this is for me. It shows my emotions & my personality (& my sense of humor). If you do not like dirty songs, or foul language, don't listen to this. Some of these songs just crack me the hell up. Like everyone else, though, I'm not always up. I live on an emotional roller coaster.

Music makes a big difference to my mood & therefore my life. It helps to soothe me, makes me happy, lets me be silly, makes me cry, lets me yell in rage while in traffic (thank you Dope!), & then soothes me again.

Welcome to my roller coaster.

I hope you have a wonderful Monday.

Peace & Love.

I Have an Interview!

2009-10-30T09:43:00.000-07:00

Holy shit! I'm so excited & nervous! It has been ages it seems since the last time I have had one (like Feb or something).

Yes, it brings all my insecurities to the surface. The last time I held a steady job, was about a year ago, & by the time I left I had zero self worth. I was in a place where I couldn't do anything right & the harder I tried the worse it got. My relationship with my manager was extremely bad & she I were alone in the office quite a bit. What hurt the most was that she & I were friends at some time during my almost 10 yrs there, ok that & the fact that she almost left us without a place to live .(We had sold our house & were buying a new one. Everything was almost done, but she held up my work verification & then told them I had given notice & then almost didn't change it cuz she didn't like lying. Still a little angry, can you tell? It's taking everything I've got not to say mean things.)

So now a year later I have an interview for a job that I desperately need. Looking at the job description, yes, there are a few things I've never done, but I can learn! A majority of it is right up my alley!

If I get the position, my life would be so much better! I would be able to pay bills. Not worry about buying food. We would be able to have Christmas!!!

I guess this was my drawn out way of saying: If you pray, please pray for me. If you don't, or if you want, on top of praying, please cross everything you possibly can without hurting yourself. My family & I thank you!

Dido - Thank You
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If you have any advice, please share!

Peace & Love

Happy Birfday to My Sissy!

2009-10-28T12:39:00.000-07:00

My baby seester is turning 28 today (wait, that makes me old), is turning 19 today. Kellers, I hope you have a wonderful birfday & know that M is extremely pissed that we don't get to see you. She has a present for you. I love you!

If any of you want to see some of my sissy's drawings, fabulous drawings (yes, the biatch got all the creativity), pls check her out on Facebook. Tell her I sent you & that you want to look at her fantabulistically wonderful drawings. I'm not biased or anything.

Peace & Love

Wordless Wednesday...I Talk Too Much Anyway

2009-10-28T10:06:00.000-07:00

Oops I did it again

Had an i-dea in the car....

Yeah, that's gone! Anyone wanna get me a recorder for my birfday? Since I don't have anything of value to say today (except vote for Kim! #7), I'm going to do something I don't normally do. I'm going to participate in Wordless Wednesday.

Who's That Girl? (Yeah, I coulda gone w/Devil in Disguise) I love my friends!

Peace & Love!

A Halloweeny Music Monday

2009-10-26T05:00:00.000-07:00

Honestly, I forgot Halloween was on Saturday, so next weeks Music Monday is done. Then I had an "Oh Shit!" moment & so I finally finished this at 10:30 at night. I got most of these here. I think they're fun & spooky & sexy. I don't know, they're something. Enjoy!

I hope you all have a great Monday!

Peace & Love.

Oh Glee, How I Love Thee!

2009-10-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

As we already know, I'm a little off. Not like that! I'm perfectly normal, damn it! (Maybe not, since I'm arguing w/myself & imaginary people.) Aaaanyway...I've been down.

Money problems will do that. I'm looking for work & it's not going so well. I'm borrowing money (out the wazoo) from family, but it's like putting a band-aid on a giant gaping wound. I've been trying to either sleep my problems away or watch tv/movies to distract me.

I grew up watching, & digging, musicals (my grandparents had them & from what I can tell the love runs in the family). In this day & age, it makes me a little weird, I know. Don't get me wrong, I don't like them all. Hell, I haven't even seen The Sound of Music (insert collective gasp here). If you are a Twitter or Facebook friend, there will be times that you just get lines from some of the musicals (most recently The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas) from me. I'd apologize in advance, but if I was sorry, I wouldn't do it.

Also, if you've been reading my blog for more than a second, you'd see my love of music. I love all sorts (I tend to only post the upbeat for y'all), including some of the music Putumayo puts out, even though I don't understand most of the songs. Music soothes me. Plain & simple, music makes me happy.

Enter teenybopper show, Glee. I saw the commercials & like a lot of people, never thought twice about it. Sure I like Jane Lynch, but what the fuck do I care that she's got a show on tv? Then I kept seeing random things on FB from people saying how much they liked the show. Ok, I can't say that I don't like something if I haven't seen it, so I thought I'd give it a try (thank you Hulu!). They were already 4 or 5 episodes into the season & once I watched the first one, I had to watch them all!

I loved it. I loved the cheesiness of it, the high strung girl, the bad boy, the jock, the gay guy, the black chick, the Asian chick, the bitchy cheerleader, wheelchair guy...& the rest(here on Gilligan's Island!). I love watching the happenings in the storyline of them trying to get to Sectionals.

The songs, some I've heard & some I hadn't, all sounded great to me (ok, the jock doesn't blow me away, but nothing is perfect). Songs put together that I never would have listened to, made me search out the originals.

Again, music has made me happy. This show in all it's bitchy, cheesy, Slushee, funny, dance-y, musically wonderful glory helps to make me a happy camper when all I want to do is cry. Who can cry when a white guy is singin the Thong Song?!

If you wanna make fun of the show, watch it first, then you can make fun of it. But I hope you love it instead.

Ok, it also helps that they have some cutie-pies in it. I'm a sucker for a cutie in a little Mohawk!

Peace & Love

The Dogoat Has Struck Again

2009-10-21T10:36:00.000-07:00

Eric's jacket. (I was just putting in my Pirates movie & saw it on the ground.) The gaping hole was part of the collar.

Monday~Eric left his hat on the counter...

Snow White has lost her arms & legs. (The missing clothes are courtesy of M.)

We went out of our way to find her & this is how she repays us...this week. I don't know what to do as we just don't have the funds to keep replacing the things she is destroying. And we still can't let her roam free outside...

I suppose I should be thankful, since the rage I am feeling is saving me from the dark hole I was slipping into.

Peace & Love

The Kadi Bunch

2009-10-19T15:52:00.000-07:00

Here's the story of a girl named Kadi
Who was bringing up 7 very lovely kids.
All of them had hair of gold, unlike their mother,
The youngest one was not a girl.

Here's the story, of a man named Daniel,
Who was busy with 7 kids & the wife,
They were crazy, living all together,
But they were never alone.

Till the one day when the lady & her fellow
They knew it was much more than a hunch,
That this group would become a super-family.
That's the way they all became the Super Prescott Bunch.
The Prescott Bunch,

That's the way they all became the Super Prescott Bunch.
The Prescott Bunch. (It’s like the Fantastic Four, but better!)

I told you...problems. I have problems!

Peace & Love

Why I Can't Seem to Write Anything...

2009-10-19T15:20:00.000-07:00

Furthering my tribute to the Steve Miller Band's The Joker. Yes, there is something wrong w/me, but it felt like doing a Mad Lib! Once I got going, I couldn't stop. Yes, so instead of writing something meaningful & deep *cough cough BULLSHIT cough cough*, I'm playing with songs. Lovely. (No offense is intended to the Steve Miller Band)

Some people call me a little goofy, yeah
Some call me a prankster, a nut
Some people call me Kimberlty
Cuz my friends were sent down from above

People talk about me, baby
Say I’m doin it wrong, doin it wrong
Well, I don't worry baby,I don't worry
Cause I'm hiding, hiding, hiding, hiding behind the couch

Cause I'm a poker
I'm a grinner
I'm a laugher
And I'm in the gutter

I wish I could play some music in the sun

I'm a mother
I'm a sister
I'm a not a mister
I sure don't want to beat no one (but I will! Don't tempt me!)

I'm a bitcher
I'm a moaner
I'm a complainer
And I'm a whiner
I left my music in the car

I'm a tweeter
I'm a blogger
I'm a email writer
I give my lovin to everyone
Wooo wooooo

You're the cutest thing
That I ever did see (& you are!)
I really love your cookies
Give them to me!
Lordy-lordy, lordy-lordy, lordy-lordy I feel fat
Ooo-eee baby, I sure wish I hadn’t eaten all that

Cause I'm a eater
I'm a grazer
I'm a muncher
And I'm a snacker
Damn why am I still in the sun?

I'm a wifey
I'm in for lifey
I'm full of strifey
I’m lucky the hubby’s not on the run

I'm a yeller
I'm a shouter
I'm a kisser
And I'm a pouter
I am staying out of the sun

I'm a provoker
I'm a ex-smoker (Since June!)
I’ve never been a toker
I sure don't want to fight no one (today)

Wooo woooo

People aren’t talking about me baby (I swear!)
They can’t say I'm doin you wrong
Well I’m not worried, not worried, no I’m not worried pops
Cause they can’t hurt me here at home

You're the funniest thing I ever did see
Really love your dimples, want to wanna pinch your tushy
Hubba hubba, hubba hubba, hubba hubba all the time
Come on baby and I'll let you show me a good time

Does anyone think I should seek help??

Peace & Love!

It's That Time Again!

2009-10-19T05:00:00.000-07:00

It's Happy Music Monday Day! I have another round of covers for you! I love most of these, & again, some of them just make me chuckle. I hope you enjoy them as much as I do!!

I hope you all have a wonderful Monday!

Peace & Love

Happy Friday!

2009-10-16T10:43:00.000-07:00

Some people call me a bad mommy, yeah
Some call me full of love
Some people call me Kimmy
And I speak like a dork from above

Cause I'm a bitcher
I'm a moaner
I'm a talker
And I'm a poker
I listen to music in my car

I don't know...Sorry (to the Steve Miller Band), I'm trying to pick myself up. Everything feels off when you wake up late, which I did (only a couple of hours, not much, right? Only an hour after I've usually already left the house...). Yes, my daughter was late to school today (& none too sweet about it) because I accidentally turned my alarm off instead of hitting snooze.

I detest being late! I'm almost always early! I feel like a bad mom cuz the kidlet was late because of me. Granted she would have been just fine if I told her she could stay home today. Then hello, that would have been worse, telling her that she could stay home cuz i didn't feel like taking her to school!

Sorry, happy place, happy place, gotta find my happy place. Music!

Ahhhh...my happy place! Have I mentioned how much I love Glee?

Sorry, just rambling today. Trying to get on track, so I can attempt to get something, anything done today!

I hope everyone has a great Friday!

Peace & Love!

Happy Hump Day!

2009-10-14T10:34:00.000-07:00

We are having some crazy weather here! This is just to & from my travels in taking the kidlet to school~today!

See the darkness in the distance? That's where I'm headed. (Ignore the cracked windshield)

Into the darkness. Yes I was driving thru a cloud. (Ignore the cracked windshield)

Back at home. Beautiful, isn't it? (Ha, tricked you! Now there is no windshield!)

Feeling a little dorkish today. Can you tell?? (I made a snowman with pictures!) I think I'm just happy to be out of the clouds. It's scary when it's wet & you can't see. Why did I take a picture then? Trust me, that was not the scary part, I didn't bust out the camera for the truly scary parts!

This just makes me chuckle...and feel old.

Peace & Love

A Million Years Ago

2009-10-12T14:12:00.000-07:00

Shit, I don't even know how long ago it was. Here is a pic of my bff & myself. Jeez, was I cute as a bug or what? I may never (ok, WILL never look like that ) again, this pic gives me a goal! Look at that chin...there's only one! Barb's momma just put this on FB & I had to share.

Here's to the good ol' days! *raise my bottle of water*

Peace & Love. Cheers

Happy Music Monday Day!

2009-10-11T10:53:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful it's time to work on Music Monday again! Paparazzi WOULD NOT leave my head! It was so bad, that before bed on Friday, I had to pull up the ol' youtube & listen/watch Glee's Halo/Walking on Sunshine & It's My Life/Confessions, which worked, but unfortunately, they are now stuck in my head. I'm listening to my Music Monday to review & see how the songs I picked go together, cuz yes, I did put some interesting things (at least to me) in there.

Happy Monday to all! I hope you enjoy this group of songs as much as I do!

Peace & Love

Special Thanks

2009-10-09T21:57:00.000-07:00

Thank you to my wonderfully, fantasticallistically, amazing friend, Brittany Greer! She made the great changes here so I will stop bitching about how I didn't like it after I messed with it. (I know she just did it, because she is truly a nice person.)

Thank you again! I loves you bunches!

Peace & Love

Happy Friday!

2009-10-09T10:25:00.000-07:00

As you know, I constantly have songs, quotes, useless knowledge, whatever in my head. For the past few days, here is what has been stuck in my head:

Lady Gaga - New Music - More Music Videos

This isn't what I was seeing, though. In my head, this is what I saw. This is Trisha from Momdot.com & this makes me chuckle every time I see it or think of it. I don't want to be laughing at 5:11 in the morning, though! I still had time to sleep & this was playing over & over!

I hope it brings a smile to your face, too.
Peace & Love

Pardon Me People, but...

2009-10-08T15:31:00.000-07:00

I'm messing with the template, so it's going to look like shit here for a bit! Please be patient.

Peace & Love

The Application Process

2009-10-07T09:52:00.000-07:00

As you know, I've been looking for work to help support the family, & I'm in "apply for anything" mode. I am completely amazed at what I have to go through to submit an application for a drug store or a movie rental place! It takes almost an hour just to get through everything, & just when you think you're done, "POOF!" you get buried in more questions. There are the normal questions about employment & education history, references, blah blah blah, & then they get to your personality questions.

1. If you catch someone stealing, what would you do?
a. Let them keep it. They obviously need it!
b. Yell "Thief!" & proceed to beat the little bastards.
c. Go tell the manager.

2. It's ok to wear skimpy clothing to work...
a. Duh, I'm a skank & need to show it if I got it!
b. Anyone who does this should he hung by their wrists & stoned!
c. No, it's best to always dress professionally at work.

3. It's best to be punctual...
a. Always.
b. Most of the time.
c. You mean I'm expected to show up?!

4. When was the first day of your last period?
a. Oops! Sorry, wrong set of questions!

You see where I'm going with this? When the hell did this happen? When I was in high school, the apps were no problem. It seems now that I'm an adult, & more responsible, they wanna know everything! My name, age, weight, name of first boyfriend, bra size, did I ever steal lip gloss when I was 7...Sheesh!

Ok, enough bitching. Wish me luck, people, I'm going back in!

She works hard to attempt to get the money!

Because Google suggested when I started typing, & I always do what Google says. Plus I'm always up for some Shakira!

Shakira - She Wolf official video music
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Peace & Love

Attention So Cal Women!

2009-10-06T10:34:00.000-07:00

Attention Southern California women! My Manager, Friend/, & Financial Professional, Kelly Patterson is doing a wonderful thing by putting together FREE workshop for the ladies of So Cal!

You ever wonder where the hell your money goes each month? I do! Ok, so I can't balance a checkbook. I hope you all are better than I am, but if you're not or just need a refresher, please come check out the Women Creating Wealth workshop, & bring a friend! You're bound to learn something new!

If you have any questions, let me know & I'll do my best to get you some answers!

"Back by popular demand!!

Financial workshop created just for women! Ladies, we're going through some tough ecomonic times right now, arm yourself with simple steps on how to get out of the debt cycle and into a cash cycle, find the "holes in your budget" and invest for your future. Come join us for an afternoon of fun and much needed education. It's FREE! See attached flyer.

Hope to see you there!

Kelly

Our Mission: 'To empower women to take control of their financial future'"

Peace & Love

Ok, It's Official, I Love This Playlist!!!!

2009-10-05T05:00:00.000-07:00

I loooove doing the covers for Music Monday (even if it takes me hours looking them up)!!! I bet that if you look hard enough, you could find at least one other version of all of your favorite songs. Some of them, I just couldn't do because they were just plain bad! (Ex: White Stripes doing Dolly's Jolene. It was hard to decide whether or not I was going to laugh or cry!) When I told my hubby that I put in Pantera doing Cat Scratch Fever, I swear he had an O! I enjoyed putting these together, I hope you enjoy listening.

I hope y'all have a wonderful Monday!

Peace, love, & hopefully a few smiles.

Calico In Review

2009-10-04T08:30:00.000-07:00

It's old. It's dusty. It's rocky. Thank you. This has been Kim with your Calico Review. (Did I sell it or what?!)

They sure grow them big here! Can you believe she's only 2? (J/k-she's 3. Fine, she's 5. Cute ain't she?)

"Nice weather we're having..." "What? Oh, yes dear."

School. Need I say more?

How the natives wash their dishes.

A native airing out her pits (Love you Christy!)

I really should clean my house!

Does this angle make my butt look big?? Oh wait, it looks big from any angle!

Hehehehehe...Just having a little fun. Calico was a blast spent w/friends/family. I'm still tired, so maybe later, I can do a real review...or not.

Peace & Love

Oil of Old Age

2009-10-02T11:58:00.000-07:00

Hello, friends! I'm back with another wonderful product for you! It's called Oil of Old Age. Do you look like this poor shmo here?

(I'm feeling brave...& yes I'm tired.)

When you rub it on your face, it takes away all of your imperfections...

Just paint your face back on & you're good to go!

Oil of Old Age. Get yours today at these fine retail stores:

Tarjay, Wallmart, Right-Aid, & Wallgreeneys

I couldn't leave everyone sad on a Friday. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Love to you all!

Peace, Love, & Good Skin

Where O Where Has My Little Dog Gone?

2009-10-02T06:06:00.000-07:00

It's early but I must do this before I forget. I'm not like everyone else. I'm more selfish & things don't affect me quite the same way. When I cry for someone I know who has died, I don't cry for them, I cry for me that they're gone & how that's going to affect me. I'm usually happy for them because they are out of pain (if they suffered) or in a better place, etc. A lot of people do this, they just don't realize it. I've dealt with enough loss in my time to figure this out about myself. Anyway, I'm straying...

My little (or not so little, anymore) puppy has gone missing. She is a pain in the ass, but like the other pains in my life, I love her. I went through my morning routine this morning starting out, without a dog on my feet, & made my coffee. Then what did I do? I went & sat outside as usual. I used to do it because I smoked ( haven't in a few months now) & then because the dog had to potty. It's friggin cold out there now! I had no reason to go out anymore, so why did I do it?

I took my daughter to school & came back & went through the front door instead of the garage hoping she'd be sitting there waiting for me by the door. I opened the blinds like I usually do so she can see outside.

How can something that has been in my life for a few months (& destroyed several of my things) affect me this way? She was destructive, & talked back whenever given an order, but she also was cute & loving. I still hold out hope, but I live in reality.

Good bye, my Hales, I will miss you.

(For those of you wondering: Yes, M is sad, but she seems to be taking it better than me.)

I may have used this song recently, but it sort of fits & The Violent Femmes can make anything better.

.

Update: about 1:30~She's home! She was in the street when someone picked her up yesterday. They took her to animal control today because the # on the tag was not clear. Thank you all so much for your support. I'm sooo happy!

Peace & Love

Starbucks VIA Ready Brew

2009-09-30T09:36:00.000-07:00

Ok, I don't normally review (cuz normally, I don't care,) but I decided today that I have to give it a try.

When I went to Starbucks yesterday (hey, I had cash!), they were giving away free samples of their new VIA Ready Brew Instant Coffee. So, I did what I normally do & threw the sample in my purse.

Well, today I found myself lacking cash for my regular cup of Joe (now why does that just sound wrong?), er coffee, so when I got home from dropping the kidlet off, I realized that I still had the sample in my purse!

I was delightfully surprised! Normally, I don't like instant coffee. I think it tastes like what I imagine a donkey's butt would taste. The Colombia (also comes in Italian Roast), while not exactly smelling like their normal brew (not bad smelling, just different), was actually very good! It tasted just like their regular coffee. However, if you don't like Starbucks, you're not going to like it. It took about a minute & a half to heat the water and then it was done. A plus: there was nothing to clean up except the little packet to throw away. How fabulous is that?

I think this is a great product. It's a little spendy ($9.95 for 12 packets), but if you have days when you're in a rush & you need to quick fix, I think it's worth it (unless you prefer the taste of donkey butt).

Peace, Love & Coffee

There Is a Leak...

2009-09-29T15:50:00.000-07:00

...In my bank account & now there seems to be a problem with my dryer AND washer!

Isn't it always the way? You're short on funds (everything almost completely maxed out) & everything just decides to take a shit. It can't be little things like a blowdryer (which I rarely use). Noooo, it has to be something that I actually have to use on a regular or everyone in my house will be stinky & dirty.

I need to find a cork to stop that leak & get a magical washer/dryer that kicks ass & never breaks down. Hey, if I'm getting a magical washer & dryer, why can't my laundry just be magically cleaned & folded & put away?

Is that drool-worthy or what? Bee-oo-tee-full Frigidaire!

Let's follow the bouncing ball of my train of thought: Leak>There's a Hole In the Bottom of the Sea>Danny Kaye>The Court Jester. See, simple. And it makes me happy!

Peace, Love, & Clean Clothes

Music Monday Covers (You Know I Loves Them!)

2009-09-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

Ok, I just spent the last 2 hours going through songs for y'all (It's hard because I only put songs I like on here!). While tons of songs pop into my head at any random moment, it's hard to call them to me on command (Getting old sucks!). I don't know if I've mentioned this before, but I HATE research! Ok, so I did start to have some fun with this. This reminded me of songs I had forgotten & some of them just made me giggle. I hope you all enjoy & it helps you to have a happy Monday.

I know there are a ton I've left out, but give me a break here, I gave you a couple more than usual! (Oh, & I have more for another time.)

Peace & Love

Don't Write Angry, Don't Write Angry

2009-09-26T21:26:00.000-07:00

Hello friends. I'm Kim & boy do I have a wonderful product for you today! Have you ever sent an email, text or tweet that you really shouldn't have because you were angry? Did you call your boss a whore or tell your bff that she looked like a fucking cow? (Language people! You can't say fuck in a commercial!) Did you tell your sister that she was adopted & that your mom liked you better & that her ears look big & her boobs are small & that her ass looks big & that you stole her boyfriend in high school....I think you get my point.

Well, I have the solution for you! It's called pistoff. With this handy little program you can lock the keys of your cell phone & computer! You just install the program to your phone or cell phone. It will lock back up after each message sent. To unlock it all you have to do is:

Type your name
Age
Birth date
Social Security number
Weight this week
Telephone #
Shoe size in heals
Your first boy/girl-friend's middle name
Your first grade teacher's last name
Your mother's maiden name
What you had for dinner last night
The last time you had sex
When you expect to have sex again
(For Women) The first day of your last period

If you get through all that without throwing your phone or computer out the window, you should be calm enough to send only rational messages.

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I'd show you a picture, but I threw the damn computer out the window about an hour ago & somehow my phone ended up in the toilet. Huh, I wonder how that happened...

I love this movie! So, no music for you! Trust me, you'll have plenty on Monday.

I hope everyone is having a fun, safe weekend!

Peace & Love

If a Picture is Worth a Thousand Words...

2009-09-26T15:01:00.000-07:00

What is this one saying?

As we celebrated the life & death of Manertainment.com with our beloved Stretch (anyone who doesn't listen to Jack & Stretch/Stench on either Jackandstench.com or CRN, needs to give them a try) some wackiness ensued.

The game for today is:
What do you see in this pic? If you had a caption for it, what would it be?

This is because I love this song & can't get it out of my head!

Peace, Love & 1/2 nekkid people!

Why I Love My Flat Iron (Deep, I Know!)

2009-09-25T13:55:00.000-07:00

Frizz~ Why I hate my hair (& my blowdryer)

Getting Better...

Ta Da!!!!

Peace, love & wonderful hair products!

Music Monday is Back!

2009-09-21T05:00:00.000-07:00

A little pick-me-up to get y'all going, I made this one a little heavier. I hope you enjoy!

Have a Happy Monday!

Peace & Love

D-Nile, A Suburb of Crazy Town...

2009-09-16T15:50:00.000-07:00

(This is where I am living, happily, today!)

So, we bring you back you you regularly scheduled program! What is that, you may ask...well, fuck if I know (ooooh, I said a bad word!). I didn't like the vibe of yesterday's post so I needed to update. I have a plan. Anyone who wants to help, I'd appreciate it.

Ok, here it is...First, I need a plastic surgeon. I need them to take about 80 lbs off my little frame & flatten my tummy. (A trainer can come later, I'm in a hurry here.) Then I need some absolutely fab clothes! Then I need that movie, you know the one where the guy sells his wife for $1 million for the night. (Someone get on that, will ya?) Then we need someone to restrain my hubby to make him watch that several times, so then he'll think it was his idea...

I plan on taking him to a casino & letting someone have him for the night (for a fee, of course). You didn't think I'd actually do this myself, did you? No! Sometimes a girl just wants to feel pretty.

Humor, Nature's bigger picker upper. Love you guys!

This is just because I think she did an a-friggin-mazing job!

P!nk - New Music - More Music Videos

Peace & Love

It's My Turn

2009-09-15T10:21:00.000-07:00

I have survived many things. I have survived losing a parent. I have survived the Avon Walk. I survived a job I hated for almost 10 years. I've survived having a beautiful devil child (so far~yes, I love her anyway). I've survived a move that left me bouncing around between the inlaws & my parents house for a few weeks. I've survived being told by my sister inlaw what she actually thinks of my husband & myself~in front of my daughter. I have survived being broke before. Why do I feel like I'm not going to make it this time?

I'm in the process of waiting for my business to take off. I've been working here & there. I need steadier work, I need more business. I need to stop feeling like a failure. I need to help my husband out more. I need to be able to make my mortgage payment & my electric bill! The credit card companies are gonna have to go screw themselves for a while.

So do I get a regular part time job? A full time job? I don't know how to work for someone else anymore...I don't even know what I'm good at anymore. What the hell do I do? I'm looking at the job listings online & I don't know what I'd be qualified for. I looked at the Problogger job board, but I don't know enough about anything or have enough experience to write for any of them. I'm not a writer, I've never been (other than being a wanna be poet). I want to work in a bookstore, not one of those big ones, either. I'm not fast. I'm not gifted. I'm not a people person.

I'm in such a mood that even my teeny bopper movies aren't working. No music today unless you wanna suggest something.

As the tears come down, I thank the heavens for spellcheck. This all makes sense to me. If it doesn't to you, I'm sorry, I'll try to do better next time. This is the mess in my head.
Peace & Love

Special Edition: The Weekend Report

2009-09-13T16:41:00.000-07:00

The Avon Walk for Breast Cancer has come & gone...

Here's my version of the walk (cuz you know it's different than everyone else's.):

I was a superstar! I walked all 39.something miles! I could do another one next weekend, I feel so good! (Ha, I feel like it's Opposite Day again)

Ok, now everyone knows that's crap, but it really is an amazing thing to see that many people come out for such a good cause. Oh & the people supporting everyone else absolutely kicked ass! They absolutely help to keep the walkers going. When you're feeling down & thinking you're gonna die & you're not going to be able to finish, they're right there to pump you up & make you smile. Even if it's only for a little while, then you start to feel that way again & BOOM! there they are again, picking you right back up.

Did I finish? Hell no! Do I feel bad about it? Maybe a little. I walked the 13.whatever miles on yesterday, then did a couple miles this morning & then hit the cheering station where my bff was & called it quits. But see, here's one of the cool things. Barb was one of those awesome people cheering for everyone (& with that bee-oo-tea-full baby of hers, they were total moral boosters!). So she & I went to other cheering stations to cheer on my aunt & friend Heather (who did freaking awesome, by the way) & got to cheer on others while either waiting for them or just cheering on the peeps that came after them. So, do I feel bad? Only a little. I got to have a whole new experience with being on the other side of it as sell as the walking.

There is probably a lot more that I am leaving out, but I am sore, blistered, swollen, & tired. Maybe if you remind me later, I'll have more to tell you (if I remember).

Thank you to all of my friends & family for all the support you have given me! (A humongo thanks to those who came out, be it the walk itself, dinner, or just my hotel room. I love you all, even if you're creepy *cough* Kevin *cough*!)

I almost put Wind Beneath My Wings up, but I seem to be emotional & I can't do it. Ok, this is waaaaayyy different, but I like it ( you know how much I love the covers!).

I got 3 things from this video: 1. Damn, I want her stomach (in this video). It's perfect! 2. They put Paris's Carl's commercial in the video! (ok, it's not Paris). 3. I think I would die trying to walk(I mean really walk) in boots!

Peace, Love & Advil

Edit: So y'all know, I'm talking about my walking experience. I could have not walked a step & still have known that I did a good thing, helping to raise money for a great cause!

Well, We Already Knew There Was Something Wrong W/Me...

2009-09-09T13:21:00.000-07:00

But usually people tend to think it's my head (you read it correctly). In fact, my hubby questions my sanity on a weekly basis (hey, I hide the craziness well enough that he doesn't feel the need to check daily).

Ok, now picture all the fat women you see on tv. They complain that they can't lose weight (while shoving a piece of cake in their face-mmmm, cake. Oops, sorry!) & say they have a thyroid problem.

(Now here is where my sanity is called into question.) I am one of the few who can now say this truthfully and I am soooo friggin happy about it! I am relieved! I was diagnosed today with Hashimoto's disease & unlike normal people who would probably be in tears (normal can be so overrated ; p )I am actually thrilled!

Yes, it sucks that I will be on meds for the rest of my life (unless there is some medical breakthrough), but I have been continuously putting on weight for the last year. The number on the scale never goes down, only up & it has killed what little self confidence I may have had. Now I have a reason for it, besides me being a lazy, fatass.

For some reason, I have an Xmas song in my head, but I won't do that to you...

Peace & Love & before I forget: Happy Hump Day